Growing up, just about everything I watched on tv featured some type of relationship. I would watch shows like Boy Meets World, Glee, and Hannah Montana and dream about finding love just my favorite tv characters. Little did I know, that my love life would practically be none existent.
When I got into middle school, everyone started to pair off except me. At the time I would imagine that I would find my soulmate at such a young age like Cory and Topanga, but that didn't I was considered weird and overdramatic to the rest of my peers, but that didn't stop me from wanting to pair off with someone. I tried to be as girly as I could be, but at the end of the day, I was still alone. After a few tries of trying to get a boy to like me, I decided that I wasn't even going to bother with middle school love. It never really lasts, right?
As I got older I figured that my dream of finding love would turn into a reality, but it didn't. Now, don't get me wrong, it's not like I wasn't interested in finding love, in fact, I would be jealous of my friends who had high school or college romances, but I was just afraid to put my self out there. I tried using apps like Tinder or Bumble, but they didn't really work out since I didn't know how to flirt over text. I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. So, I decided to try something a bit different. I decided to take a break from searching for love.
I deleted all of my dating apps and started living my day to day life as a single women. Since then, I was able to watch my eldest sister walk down the aisle, and I even had friends who later found themselves in relationships. I was actually happy for them this time. They had found love, and although, I hadn't found it yet, I figured that I would find it eventually.
There is no rush when it comes to finding love. From what I've heard, it happens at the most unexpected times in our lives. I'm not going be actively looking for a relationship to be in, but if one comes my way, I'm not going to shy away.
