When I'm out there, I think about what I want

and I think

and I think

and I think that if I go and grasp for it,

I think somebody might slap my hand.

And when I'm alone, my words

Can be the captain of my own ship

But when others are around,

Captain Morgan has to take the wheel

to get anywhere because my diction

becomes Captain Hook,

desperately clawing and clambering

to get out

of the crocodile's jaws.

And what I'm trying to say is

what I'm trying to say is

what I'm trying to say is

I'm trying to say,

but I can't.

And not because I don't want to

or because I'm not smart enough

to speak intelligently, No,

see I can write and recite

a crown of sonnets to myself

It's just that saying them to the person

they are addressed to is like trying to speak

underwater with a mouth full of cement.

It's not that I want to be silent,

I never wanted to be this way.

It's just that

what I'm trying to say is

what I'm trying to say is

what I'm trying to say is