AVPD: A Poem

AVPD: A Poem

What I'm trying to say is...


When I'm out there, I think about what I want

and I think

and I think

and I think that if I go and grasp for it,

I think somebody might slap my hand.

And when I'm alone, my words

Can be the captain of my own ship

But when others are around,

Captain Morgan has to take the wheel

to get anywhere because my diction

becomes Captain Hook,

desperately clawing and clambering

to get out

of the crocodile's jaws.

And what I'm trying to say is

what I'm trying to say is

what I'm trying to say is

I'm trying to say,

but I can't.

And not because I don't want to

or because I'm not smart enough

to speak intelligently, No,

see I can write and recite

a crown of sonnets to myself

It's just that saying them to the person

they are addressed to is like trying to speak

underwater with a mouth full of cement.

It's not that I want to be silent,

I never wanted to be this way.

It's just that

what I'm trying to say is

what I'm trying to say is

what I'm trying to say is

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I'm sure there was a brief moment where you genuinely believed you were capable of not caring, especially since you convinced everyone around you that you didn't. But that just isn't true, is it? Don't be ashamed of this, don't let anyone ridicule you for having emotions.

After everything life has put you through, you have still remained soft.

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You are the girl who will give and give and give until you have absolutely nothing left. Some may see this as a weakness, an inconvenience, the perfect excuse to walk all over you. I know you try to make sense of it all, why someone you cared so much about would treat you the way they did.

You'll make excuses for them, rationalize it and turn it all around on yourself.

You'll tell yourself that maybe just maybe they will change even though you know deep down they won't. You gave them everything you had and it still feels as if they took it all and ran. When this happens, remind yourself that you are not a reflection of those who cannot love you. The way that people treat you does not define who you are. Tell yourself this every day, over and over until it sticks. Remind yourself that you are gold, darling, and sometimes they will prefer silver and that is OK.

I know you feel guilty when you have to say no to something, I know you feel like you are letting everyone you love down when you do. Listen to me, it is not your responsibility to tend to everyone else's feelings all the time. By all means, treat their feelings with care, but remember it is not the end of the world when you cannot help them right away.

Remember that it is OK to say no.

You don't have to take care of everyone else all the time. Sometimes it's OK to say no to lunch with your friends and just stay home in bed to watch Netflix when you need a minute for yourself. I know sometimes this is much easier said than done because you are worried about letting other people down, but please give it a try.

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They're doing more harm than good.


A safe space is any marked place on a college campus where there is no bias, criticism, or conflict of any kind. Most college campuses across America have guaranteed safe spaces where students can congregate and shield themselves from controversial topics or opinions differing from their own.

Not only do safe spaces limit one's freedom of speech, but they also prevent young adults from expanding their knowledge and developing new perspectives. The formation of safe spaces comes from a good place, but their exclusiveness and parochialism have created the opposite effect of what was intended.

I first heard about safe spaces from my brother during his first year of college. Out of general curiosity, he attempted to enter a safe space but was told he was not welcome because he was a male; the women in the safe space told him they felt threatened by his presence. To exclude someone from a congregation because of their gender is not only sexist and bigoted, but it also prevents any sort of diversity of people and ideas from entering the group.

You will not find safe spaces outside of college. Whether you work at a restaurant, office, hospital, or a firm, it is very unlikely that you will find a marked area where you can block out the rest of your surroundings. You will be forced to deal with all kinds of people who come from all kinds of backgrounds and ideologies, and if that is not something you can handle, then there is no other way you can function in any kind of society.

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