If you are reading this right now that means you are in pain again, I wish you weren’t, but you are. Just know that I am proud of you and how far you have come. You have all you need to fight this, and I know you will just like you do each time. You do not deserve this pain; you need to know that. You have a huge heart, bigger than most, and whatever it is that is making you feel this way is not worth the struggle. Let it go.

I know how you feel right now; So nauseous you can barely eat, so full of tears you can barely breathe. I know you can’t stop replaying it in your mind, whether it be memories of times that no longer exist or hurtful words you just can’t forget. Switching between being so full of sadness to so completely empty, and you don’t know which side you prefer, they both scare you to death. You have been here too many times my friend, but do not forget that you have made it through each time and this is no exception. You can do this and you will do this.

You better listen here and listen good because I know you too well; you are rolled up into a ball under your blankets trying to hide the tears and soften the sound because let’s face it, you are a loud and ugly crier, sorry but you know it’s true. Well, I’m here to tell you to let it all out. You sit there with the pit in your stomach, creeping up your throat as you feel so choked up. It will feel so much better once you release those bottled up feelings. Put on the Spotify playlist you made specifically for this moment, listen to some Hozier and James Bay and let those feelings go. Once you feel the tears are starting to subside (this may take 2 hours, but you already know that) you can start to move on with your day.

I know the thought may linger in the back of your mind through the day, but that’s okay. It's normal. You are going through a lot and you need to realize that this Isn’t going to be easy, but this struggle will do nothing but make you so much stronger. Keep thinking positive thoughts. You are a strong believer that everything happens for a reason, so take a step back and let life do its thing for once. You are the type that wants everything to fall into place right this second, but be realistic. That’s not how it works. Stop overanalyzing and just relax knowing it will all work out in the long run.

I know that nothing anybody says could possibly help, but this one tip will: it is all about your thought process and outlook on life. The constant negative terminology like “can’t, won’t, never” you know, those words you use when you’ve lost hope, will just keep you down in the dumps. I know you're used to it down there, but come on how much nicer would it be to lift your head up and start living positively? Wake up and think of one positive thing going on that day. Step outside and look at nature and appreciate it. Appreciate life for what it is, a miracle. Once you start looking at life in this way, you will be so much happier. You will stop dwelling on the things that give you that emptiness in your gut and start focusing on the things that make your eyes light up and your heart feel full (the way you feel when you see a dog, don’t you want to feel that every day? Take my advice).

People always say to distract yourself when feeling broken, and although that can help for a little while, I think the most effective thing would be accepting the pain, acknowledging it, and then doing your best to let it go. Distractions will help only during the time where you are out and about, but what about when you are alone? It will all hit at once and I promise you that, well you already know that because you have been there too many times. It is about time you start living life for yourself, nobody else. Let loose, stop caring about what everyone thinks, stop planning ahead and just do nothing but live. This is your time. Let that thought fire your endless imagination of what you can do and who you can become. The pain may come and go, but soon enough it will be gone, just a memory you can thank for making you who you are and for giving you the strength you’ll need for the next time (yes, unfortunately, you will feel this way again some day). This pain has allowed you to build the wings you need to fly on your own, and it has given you everything you need to survive.

If you are reading this right now that means you are in pain again, I wish you weren’t, but you are. Just know that I am proud of you and how far you have come. You have all you need to fight this, and I know you will just like you do each time. You do not deserve this pain; you need to know that. You have a huge heart, bigger than most, and whatever it is that is making you feel this way is not worth the struggle. Let it go.