When I was in high school, I fell in love with someone who I never thought I'd even become friends within an entire lifetime. Funny how things play out right? Yeah, I know.

Throughout my relationship with the love of my life, things got rocky. I was mistreated mentally and emotionally. I was cheated on and lied too. But I forgave but never forgot. Yes, I went back time after time. I said I was done multiple times, but the "I love you's" the "I'm sorry's" got the best of me. Stupid and dumb. Yes, I've heard it all.

At the end of our senior year, I thought we were doing completely fine. I thought we were happy and ending high school together meant we were going to be together through it all. Well, guys, I was wrong. I came back from my senior trip so excited to see him like overly excited. But it turns out I ended up coming home just to get dumped. For what reason? I still have no idea. I've asked plenty of times but all he said was, "I don't know why I did it, but I regret it every day."

So time flies, here we are five months later. Still in love? Yes very much. Kissed other guys and have fun experiences with other guys? Yes, it is too much for me.

My best friend thinks very differently and thinks I need to say F my feelings and be single. But I cannot do that. So me and my ex.... yes I said that. We have been talking and I guess trying to figure if we are meant to be together. I am in love and I have no other way to put it for you guys. But I'm taking every day as a new day and believing everything happens for a reason. So stay tuned to see if things work out or if they do not. I will be okay in the end. Momma did not raise a girl who was meant to be sad her entire life. She raised a girl with ambition and power.