In life, we all go through our ups and downs. And sometimes, we feel we have reached our limit. These ideas circle around our heads of running away, and just leaving everything behind. And they are just ideas at first, until one day, you actually follow through, and run away from it all.

Dead End Road

I was in my car parked in a Chinese buffet parking lot. My mind was suffocated by my daily adult tasks and I didn't feel like I had breaks in between to breath and enjoy my surroundings. Everything became routine and predictable. I would wake up, eat , go to work , sleep , and repeat.

The Decision

I knew I had to go to work and make my $10 and hour, I knew I was supposed to smile and laugh at jokes that weren't funny to me. But as I was sitting in the parking lot I made a spontaneous decision: I wanted to runaway for a while. Take note that I do not have any children, Just bills and stress.

Just Go, If You Dare

As the the tires were disturbing the road my body tingled in disbelief that I was doing something so irresponsible, yet so relieving. Los Angeles was filled with noise, cars, and the smell of urine, but I did not mind. I felt liberated and rebellious against society, and its "normalcy".

Where To Go

One of my favorite places is the beach. As soon as I press my foot against the sand, I'm somewhere else. My thoughts turn off and my body becomes light. The ocean water is freezing and the waves slam against my body. I keep walking deeper and deeper 'till half my body has been covered by water. The waves become stronger, but I just push against them. After the waves have settled, there are moments of tranquility. The sun is set just right and the clouds move in the right direction. It is beautiful, It is my paradise. Then, I suddenly get this epiphany: We go through all these waves in life, but when we push through them, and get to that tranquil state, you realize the waves were worth it. I realize I go through these trials to enjoy these rare moments of peace.

Back To Reality

Everything good must end. The drive back was silent. I couldn't wait to get back home and lay in my bed. I had gone to detox from my daily struggles. I had gone to feel like a human rather than a robot. I had gone to feel.

And now, I am ready to take on the world.