I've been debating for awhile to post this article. It's kind of a heavy topic for me, for anyone. And someone is bound not to agree with me. But that' how it is nowadays, you can't please everybody.

So last year when my dad passed away, i fell into a deep depression and got filled with a lot of anxiety. I mean come on I was super sad that my dad and one of my best friends passed away. And because I was full of anxiety I did not want to go to school at all. I didn't want to be around people who didn't understand what i was going through or ask me tons of questions on why i looked so sad.

So i stopped going to school a lot. I fell behind in pretty much all of classes. But no one really questioned or got onto me because they all knew i was grieving and at that point i really didn't care at all. So i ended up failing all of my classes that semester. (and i didn't care.)

That next year, to catch up on all of my classes to graduate on time, i had to take four academic classes fall semester and some more classes spring semester. Now let me remind you, they don't like to do that in high school because it can be a lot on a student.

I actually did really good that semester, until November hit. I started developing severe migraines and more anxiety. I was having them about 3 or 4 times a week. So i decided on going on homebound, which means I'm still enrolled in school but i don't go everyday and a teacher comes to me. But that was fine until February, when it ended. We had to apply to get it approved again. But this time we went through my neurologist to get the paperwork done.

As you all know, they do not get into a rush to fill out paperwork. And by the time we got it in, i got denied because i had missed 10 consecutive days of school. Which at this time, i was still having severe migraines. And since i missed the 10 days, i was withdrawn from school. So that means no graduating on time with my friends.

I was devastated, mad, angry all these feelings. But i don't think it hit me until i saw all of my friends graduate and actually move on with their lives for me to actually understand that i was stuck where i was.

Seeing all the instagram post of moving into dorms, starting classes, making new friends made me very jealous and envious of them. It just made me really sad how they got to move on with their lives and i feel like i got left behind. And going back to school made me realize i had no friends left. none at all.

But to wrap this all up, it sucks to feel like you got left behind in life. It's a hard feeling to explain. No one actually knows how it feels until they've been there.

But at the end of the day, there is absolutely nothing wrong with not graduating on time, wether it be high school or graduating college or anything. Don't let anyone tell you different, because i defiantly struggled with that.