This one's for you.
All of you.
I debated on how to approach this for days, but I think I figured it out. So this is to you, the one who's trapped. The one who is at constant war with yourself. The one who can't find a way out. The one who needs a lit path to figuring things out. The one who's like me, struggling with all the above and probably even more. It's tough. You want to give up eighty-five percent of the time. You want to be done with it all and move on, but you know you can't.
You care too much to just let things go and let them become scrambled. so you push yourself. Your world is turned upside down and you can't figure out how things got this way. You don't know what went wrong or how to fix it. So you eventually overthink and come up with scenarios and situations that are very unlikely, but you still feel like they're very possible.
I understand, I can relate more than anyone would think. I'm that person who holds everything in. Who let's people walk all over her. Who can't get two words in because she doesn't want to seem rude to that person that's been talking the past twenty minutes. I don't speak up for myself. I just take it all. But sometimes I'm a ticking time bomb. When time runs out, I explode. I saw what I've been holding in for such amount of time. No filter. Nothing. At that point, I could careless about whose feelings I hurt or even if I regret anything I said. Sometimes it just gets to be too much. Sometimes enough is enough. It's rare that I randomly explode, but it's happened a handful of times. Let me tell you, it feels -amazing- each time.
So don't be like me.
Don't let them walk all over you. Don't hold back the things you need to say. Don't let them tear you apart piece by piece. Don't get to the point of no return. Don't.
Because once you've said what you've needed to, I know you'll feel bad. You'll wish you would've kept it all in a little longer. Then you'll shut down. You won't want to talk to anyone for awhile. You'll apologize for what you said, but even then that won't be enough to you.
That's the type of person you and I are. We apologize when we most definitely shouldn't have to. They pushed us to that point. Everything kept piling on top of one another day after day. Maybe we should've spoken up in the first place, but no one likes the truth as much as the proclaim they want it. So don't let them turn the situation around on you. You did nothing wrong. Remember that.
So here's to you. You're the person who'd rather keep quiet than start a fire. You're the person who'd rather be miserable than deal with what people have to say about your thoughts and opinions. Here's to you. The person who is strong enough to admit they put up with too much. You're great."
This amazing article was written by my good friend, Madi. Her words have been inspiring to me, and I know they will inspire others. I'm so proud of her and everything she has ever accomplished. Madi, I cannot wait to see what you do with your life. You're going to go far, kiddo. Thank you for always inspiring me!
