Although my weight and size has nothing to do with you, your life, your thoughts, or your opinions: I have decided to let you into the thoughts of the "fat" girl, the "chunky" girl, the "thick" girl, the whatever you choose to call her today or tomorrow girl, because she will still be that way tomorrow. This is her thoughts, her opinions, her deepest and darkest secrets: all rolled up into a little over 600 words and at your very fingertips waiting to be read and picked apart like a piece of pepperoni pizza, "YUM!"
"Does this shirt look too tight? Is my muffin top a little too over-baked today?"
"Maybe I should just settle for the sweatpants and loose t-shirts, because girls my size shouldn't wear crop tops or leggings anyway!"
"Maybe if I wear my hair down, my double chin will become just a chin, or maybe like a chin and a half, but not a double chin, because EW."
"Do they really think I don't hear them whispering? They are literally directly behind me, they may as well just say it to me. I mean, could they whisper any louder, seriously?"
"My shadow looks like a pumpkin today! How did I see a perfect pear-shape in the mirror this morning? I really need a new mirror."
"I really hate parking my car extra far away, just so that it doesn't look like I am lazy and don't want to walk the extra few feet, because sure enough I DON'T WANT TO WALK THE EXTRA FEW FEET."
"No, I don't want the salad, so F' you too."
"Time for everyone in the room to look at me while I eat my dinner. Yay!"
"Actually, I would love the desert menu, and I need a refill on my Coke, and no, it's not Diet Coke, for the third time."
"To work out, or binge watch a show on Netflix: that is NOT the question because the answer is obvious! Netflix, here I come!"
So, there it is folks, there you have it! Your inside scoop on what really goes on through a "big" girls head. I mean, it must not have been much of a surprise though, right? With all the "fat shaming" and "bullying" that takes place on a daily basis all around the world, I would assume that you had to have some idea as to what "we" think about.
As cliché as it may seem, the "fat" girl doesn't just think about food all day long. Actually, the "fat" girl doesn't have to be overweight or obese at all. The "fat" girl could be the anorexic girl that chooses to skip her meals because she doesn't like what she sees in the mirror. The "big" girl could be the girl that knows what she wants in life, but chooses not to fight for it, in fear of being seen as "bitchy."
The point is, that until you walk a mile in their shoes, you have no right to judge them for anything at all. Not what they eat, what they look like, who they sleep with, or what they wears.
So, as a "fat" girl, let me be the first to tell you: my "back-fat" is voluptuous and serves as a shield to all the knives that have been thrown my way, my "arm-fat" is gorgeous and jiggles as I throw my fist in the air to fight for equality, and my "thunder-thighs" may shake the earth when I march alongside my sisters, but I am NOT a "natural disaster."
