The transition to college is probably one of the hardest situations for someone who is struggling with following Christ. Being surrounded by people from different beliefs and different backgrounds, however, has taught me so much regarding following the path He has for me. The first few months have been hard; I will not deny it. I have hardly attended weekly mass without mentioning following God's voice. It has been incredibly hard to discern God's voice in a campus where everyone's voice is being heard.
I lost my way in the first months of college, but after learning to hear His voice I have found my path again. I was lost in the vast activities surrounding life on campus and the multiple temptations that accompany living abroad without parental supervision. However, I have learned the hard way that I cannot do this alone. He has put me here because he has amazing plans for me. He knows my future and if I listen to him I will follow the right directions to where he wants me to be.
I realized I cannot do this alone when I started to feel this void in my being. I started to feel again as if something were missing. I knew it was not being homesick or the stress. About three months after spending almost every weekend partying and hanging out with friends, I realized that that behavior was not going to take me where He wanted me to be. I had been making false promises to myself trying to excuse my not attending to mass or pray every night.
After my little epiphany I quit making excuses and realized that He had been looking for me all along. He never ceased to be next to me and it took me three months to realize that I was the one that gave up on him. Seven months ago I made one of the biggest decisions in my life when I said "Yes" to following him and evangelize in my square meter. I have to say that after realizing that he never gave up on me I have found my voice and his voice within myself. I have learned that everyone makes mistakes and that does not mean Jesus loves me less. I have strenghtened my faith and I have not been happier.
