2018 Was The First Year That I Felt Alive And 2019 Is Going To Be Even Better

2018 Was The First Year That I Felt Alive And 2019 Is Going To Be Even Better

There is a difference between living and existing.

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I'm 19 years old and for most of my life I have been existing. My existence is not something that I was aware of until I really started living. At the end of 2017 I completely ruined my life, my life was falling apart and I was just standing by watching. I knew that I had to get out of the life that I was living and start a new one; so before 2018 ever started I started to fix myself. 2018 has been the hardest year of my life as far as work, all I have done is work on myself.

I have learned so much about myself and the people that I choose to surround myself with in the past year. In one year, I have completely torn myself down and built a new person. I've been in countless therapy sessions, with doctors and with friends. I've permanently cut people out of my life, gained new people that I will never lose, started an amazing relationship with the most amazing woman, and realized who I truly am. Let me just start by saying this: therapy works. Paying people to listen to your problems is the best invention ever and I swear to god that I will support it until the day I die.

I've had to cut people out of my life and that's been hard and easy at the same time. I haven't spoken to someone in over a year that is extremely toxic to me. This is the most comforting feeling in the world. Knowing that I have the power to control who is in my life is so powerful. I've also come to realize that if someone is toxic or they have toxic traits, they have to go- immediately. I don't have room in my life for toxic people especially when I am trying to grow.

My relationship has also helped me grow. I have never been in a relationship that has helped me grow. This relationship is the thing I needed, it's like I could only go so far on my own as far as growth and then Ciara came along and has helped me grow in ways that I couldn't on my own. Ciara has taught me how to be a better person and a kinder person, she's also taught me how to love in ways that I didn't know were possible.

My relationship with myself has grown the most in the past year. This past year I have learned so fucking much about myself. I am finally living my truth and not hiding anymore. It's taken a lot of courage and strength to become who I truly am and who I'm supposed to be. The process of living my truth has been a hard one, but it's been an amazing journey.

For the first time in my life I'm excited to live another year. 2019 is going to be the best year of my life. I have so many big plans for this year that are only going to help me grow even more than I already have. Granted, I'm not a perfect person nor will I ever be, but I am so much better off than I was two years ago.

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I'm A Woman And You Can't Convince Me Breastfeeding In Public Is OK In 2019

Sorry, not sorry.

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Lately, I have seen so many people going off on social media about how people shouldn't be upset with mothers breastfeeding in public. You know what? I disagree.

There's a huge difference between being modest while breastfeeding and just being straight up careless, trashy and disrespectful to those around you. Why don't you try popping out a boob without a baby attached to it and see how long it takes for you to get arrested for public indecency? Strange how that works, right?

So many people talking about it bring up the point of how we shouldn't "sexualize" breastfeeding and seeing a woman's breasts while doing so. Actually, all of these people are missing the point. It's not sexual, it's just purely immodest and disrespectful.

If you see a girl in a shirt cut too low, you call her a slut. If you see a celebrity post a nude photo, you call them immodest and a terrible role model. What makes you think that pulling out a breast in the middle of public is different, regardless of what you're doing with it?

If I'm eating in a restaurant, I would be disgusted if the person at the table next to me had their bare feet out while they were eating. It's just not appropriate. Neither is pulling out your breast for the entire general public to see.

Nobody asked you to put a blanket over your kid's head to feed them. Nobody asked you to go feed them in a dirty bathroom. But you don't need to basically be topless to feed your kid. Growing up, I watched my mom feed my younger siblings in public. She never shied away from it, but the way she did it was always tasteful and never drew attention. She would cover herself up while doing it. She would make sure that nothing inappropriate could be seen. She was lowkey about it.

Mindblowing, right? Wait, you can actually breastfeed in public and not have to show everyone what you're doing? What a revolutionary idea!

There is nothing wrong with feeding your baby. It's something you need to do, it's a part of life. But there is definitely something wrong with thinking it's fine to expose yourself to the entire world while doing it. Nobody wants to see it. Nobody cares if you're feeding your kid. Nobody cares if you're trying to make some sort of weird "feminist" statement by showing them your boobs.

Cover up. Be modest. Be mindful. Be respectful. Don't want to see my boobs? Good, I don't want to see yours either. Hard to believe, I know.

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Why Passion Leads To Success

Success is based on what a person wants to accomplish and the journey they take to accomplishing their goals.

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Passion is extremely important to a person's success. I think success is when a person is happy and content with their life and they have the career they have dreamed of and they make the right amount of money to live the way they want. I also think it is that a person meeting their goals and taking advantage of opportunities in their lives to better themselves is important to become successful. Success for an individual is usually based on their goals in life and the passions they have for certain subjects and career choices.

Kids always are forced into doing what their parents want and high school pressures kids to go to college way too much. I chose the path to go to college, but it is not the only option or always the right one. All people are different and they all have different interests, and that is the key point to their success. People have plenty of hobbies they enjoy, but they are always certain subjects and activities that people are passionate about. After graduation, the options are endless, because there are jobs a person can advance in to become a top employee in the company. A person can also go to all kinds of schools such as college, trade schools, tech school, beauty school, dental school, and so many more. A person can also join the military and serve their country while trying to find a career to enjoy in the military, so they have options after their service. Some people cannot handle the military, college, or trade school and there is nothing wrong with that. The journey a person takes and the goals they achieve cannot be rushed, but takes hard work on finding out what makes you happy and what makes goals achievable.

I know some people that are still trying to find their passion in their early twenties and there is nothing wrong with that. Some people are having kids or getting married, while others are achieving some goals or getting into trouble. The point is everyone is in a different place and have a different journey as they attempt to find out their passion. An important quote to me comes from Walt Payton. Payton was a running back for the Chicago Bears in the 1970s and his quote was "If you're good at something you'll tell everyone, but if you're great at something they'll tell you." This quote is important because usually if an individual is great at something and people tell you, then a person will likely fall in love with that activity. People love to be complimented and hear positive comments about themselves to boost their self-confidence. People perform their best at the subjects that they care about and have a passion for, but they also need the praise and support from the people around them to push them to be their very best. This is how I found my passion, but some people will stumble on it themselves. I started writing papers for English classes and computer classes in high school and my first year of college. I enjoyed having the freedom to write about what I wanted and being recognized for that made me feel confident so I decided to major to become a journalist. I never imagined that I would become a journalist, but that turned out to be something I loved doing and I continue working hard to improve my writing skills.

Society judges a person's every move and they peer pressure many people into feeling they have to make all the money they can or they have to go to college to be successful. I know people that have not attended college and they are making good money at their job and enjoying what they do. I know some friends who go to trade schools or are getting certificates to establish their career. The best thing America offers an individual is the ability to have the power to choose your career based on personal interests and skills a person possesses to make themselves content with their lives. People should take advantage of the opportunities around them and try to do their best in their profession. People do not live forever, but their work and impact they leave around them are important, so people should make the best of their life and find their passion.

Passion is important for every human to find, but do not rush your life or career, because people will find their passion at all different ages and periods in their lives. Young adults should enjoy their lives and have fun with their peers as they find their passion and set their goals to become the best they can be in their career. I have seen people of all ages in my college classes; Kids from high school, young adults, and even adults in their thirties to sixties. This proves people can change their current situation any time they want and find their passion at any age. People need to get more confidence in themselves and put their best effort into every aspect of their lives, so they can be happy and successful. Life is all about what a persons makes it because they are in control of their destiny, but they must find their passion and capitalize on their opportunities.

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