While in college there has been a total of four guys that made me catch the feels and eventually ended up breaking my heart. Though these experiences left me in tears, I still managed to learn something in the process. Each interaction I had with these guys taught me something more about myself or life. Its weird to think, but I somehow ended up actually turning my L's into lessons.
To the golfer that cheated on me and made me fear commitment, this was the guy that changed my whole perspective on relationships. He was my first boyfriend and I was definitely head over heels in love. Of course, it didn't last for long when he decided to cheat on me. When the relationship ended I was a complete mess. My insecurity was at an all-time low and my anxiety became an all-time high. Though it was definitely hard couple months of self-recovery, I learned something that would stick with me forever. what I learned through the tragic break up was how strong I am as a person. Even though I felt like it was the end of the world when we broke up, I was still able to bounce back stronger than ever. This was the break up that taught me the importance of self-love. It taught me that no matter how hard it may seem there is always a brighter light at the end of the tunnel. Sure it was not a great ending to my first relationship, but I was still able to learn something more about my self through it.
Here is to the fitness guy that made me realize I can still like someone. After my break up with golfer boy, I thought I could never have feelings for anyone ever again. Of course, I was wrong and was caught off guard when I developed feelings. We connected through working out and his driven personality eventually drew me in. Though it didn't work out since we both were not looking for a relationship, I learned that I was still capable of liking someone after my break up. To be honest I was more glad than sad when this happens because I realized that I wasn't a robot with no feelings after all.
To the tennis player that was just rude and didn't care about others feelings. This was one of those interactions that really open my eyes to people's real intentions. We went on a date a seemed to hit off and eventually got to know each other more. Everything seemed fine, but as time went on I realized how inconsiderate he was. He only did things his way and didn't consider how others might feel. Our time together definitely didn't last, but I still got a lesson out of it. I learned that just because you are kind to someone it doesn't necessarily mean they will be kind back.
To the guy I actually saw myself dating. This was probably one of the toughest heart breaks after my breakup since I actually saw a future relationship with this person. I had built the courage to confess my feelings to him and was rejected. He had recently graduated from college and was more focused on his career than dating. Even though our personality had matched really well our priorities and time just wasn't aligned. As crazy as it may sound, I still think we are compatible with each other. From this heartbreak, I learned that sometimes time just isn't in your favor no matter how much you want it.
Though these interactions had initially left me in tears, I learned to still be positive about the experience. It taught me more about myself and what I was looking for in a guy. I became more independent because I realized if they don't like you for who you are they are not worth your time.
