Some days it's very hard to be a California Golden Bear. Most of those days involve Jared Goff, some nail biting, and a whole lot of disappointment. While Texas may now be Bear territory, our victory was clouded with anxiety and fear...and the fact that our win was solely on account of other team missing their last punt. Unfortunately, this is a feeling Berkeley fans know all too well.

Before the game, the excitement is real. Everyone is pumped, there's noise and things being shot out of cannons, people running around; it's basically organized chaos. Even if you're watching it all from your couch, you must agree, you feel the hype.

Then, the game starts and it seems...fine. Maybe we score the first couple of points. Maybe we actually have a great play, score a touchdown! We might even seem BETTER than the opposing team. We wonder, will this game be different?

But sooner or later, we face the inevitable. A fumble. A turnover. Sorry, make that five turnovers. Is that the other team running in our kick-off for a touchdown? Yep. Did we seriously just drop the ball again? Of course. It seems like the game is already over and it's not even half time.

OH WAIT. This is the moment when we make that incredible, too-good-to-be-true kind of play. I'm talking we intercepted the ball and ran it in for a touchdown from an impossible distance. Is it possible for us to play catch up? Is this real?

No, false alarm. Apparently that play is completely illegal and the refs have now decided to retract our last 13 points, to take our best players out of the game, and to completely screw us over for the rest of the game.

OR SO WE THOUGHT! Now, with literally a minute left in the game, we are tied. How did we get here? We're not really sure. Do we have any real chance of winning this game? Maybe...probably not...maybe. At the edge of our seats, we curse our team for once again putting us in this position.

Win or lose, the game was probably too close for comfort. The only games that we Bears can really win are games that don't really matter. So, to keep up with tradition, the games have to be either an "I CAN'T BELIEVE WE WON" or a "WE JUST BARELY LOST." And that's just the way it goes.

Regardless of our questionable plays, being a Cal fan is always worth the pain. Games may be full of head shaking, ref yelling, and straight up screaming, but in the end, we all know we're damn proud to bleed blue and gold. Even if it would be nice not to be consistently questioning if we have a chance at playing at a bowl game (I mean even the Tostitos bowl would be exciting), it would be no where near as exciting as celebrating our extremely close wins after every game day.

So, as always, go Bears! May we always struggle just enough to win.