Being young and falling in love seems like a fairytale but it can turn disastrous in a heartbeat.
When I had to make the final decision to end my relationship I knew it would be one of the hardest decisions I would have to make. However, after countless attempts at a relationship where there were constant fighting and the feeling of not being enough for him, it ate away at my happiness and willpower to want to stay in the relationship regardless of the amount of love that I had for him.
Relationships are a lot of work and take compromises from both parties and trust in one another. Without those two components, you will never have a successful relationship with your partner. You should never feel as though you are being put second or as if your partner is lying to you a lot. Regardless of whatever situation you and your significant other might be in, when you lose trust in that person it can take a lot of time and hard work to gain it back. Being put second in a relationship is a big indicator that you are in an unhealthy relationship.
When you start a new romance your partner is supposed to turn into your best friend down the road and be that individual which you can always turn to and count on. If you feel as though that is not the case then maybe it is time to rethink your relationship and possibly end it. Feeling as if your partner needs certain attention from others and as if you are not enough of an individual to give them all the love and affection that they need, then some red flags might be flying in other aspects of your relationship as well.
Every day for me felt like a constant battle to keep the one I love and have all of that stress and worry from the feelings in which I kept feeling became too much and it was better for my health and sanity to call it quits in the end.
Passing by him on campus is tough due to the fact that I just want to hug him and tell him about my day, and when he does not even look my way it feels like someone is slapping me in my face. I just have to keep reminding myself that there is someone who will fit with me better and who God has put on this earth for me.
I say that because at times it felt as if I was having to be a different person than who I really am to keep him. Either acting a certain way or letting some things slide when in reality they really hurt me. No one should ever feel trapped or like they have to be someone else in their relationship. You should never have to change yourself completely for the one you love, sure you need to make compromises but stay true to who you are and your beliefs when making those compromises.
Yes, it still hurts losing him and not having that constant everyday support and person to confide in and have, but I know deep down that making this decision will be better for me in the long run despite how I feel right now.Praying and turning to God and putting my trust in him has really helped me cope with the whole situation and be able to make it through all the tough times that I feel follow a heartbreak.
