Dear Fellow Doormat,

I feel your pain. You never feel like you’re good enough. You say it’s okay when it’s really not. You get tired of putting on a brave face for everyone and acting like you just brush everything off. It gets hard trying to get those footprints off of your back doesn’t it? It’s always the same people that do it to you and you always make excuses for them. Next time will be different right?

This is something I have always dealt with and still deal with. I let people think it’s okay when they cancel on me even though I have hyped myself up for what we had planned. I let people manipulate me. I let them talk me into managing a restaurant while only paying me $3 an hour.

I am well aware of my problem but yet I haven’t changed. I still, as I sit here writing this, feel the heartache and the letdown of someone using me as a doormat. Is it their fault? No, it’s not. It is something I have allowed for years. I say it’s fine when it’s not. I try not to act like affects me when I feel crushed.

We need to stop putting other people first. We need to increase our self-worth. You might think that you are trying to do the right thing by putting others first but you’re not. You are slowly destroying yourself and it is very hard to recover from that. Do yourself a favor and start putting yourself and your feelings first. It’s better to let someone walk away from you than walk all over you.

I will leave you with this quote I found:

“She was a forgiver.

Her heart was so large,

she didn’t know how

to give up on people,

because she always believed

the good in those she loved.

It was until she was walked on

so many times, she had no choice

but to let go of those who burned

holes in her heart.”