Its okay to not be okay.

Really.

The past five months have been far from easy for me whether it's my education or my life outside of school. It's as if everything step forward that I make I get pushed five steps back.

I am extremely grateful for the life I have and the opportunities I am given and it may all seem pretty and put together on the outside, but in reality, I'm simply trying to stay sane. As a twenty-year-old with generalized anxiety and a panic disorder, trying to meet my own expectations and please all of my loved ones without any help is what really makes me "crazy".

I have always been brought up to help others before myself but as the years go on and life continues to throw more and more challenges at me I have learned that it's okay to ask for help. It's okay to tell someone you trust that you aren't okay and that you need them to comfort you.

There is a difference between being a strong person and being ignorant enough to limit yourself of the joy others are willing to put into your life. I may have lost love in my life from many but it's the new love I gain from friends and family that keeps me going. The unconditional support and tough love that every person needs. Maybe it's not about finding your one person but embracing your people.

So don't be afraid to say you aren't okay.

Don't let it fester in your own body and soul. Find your people. I know I did. Whether it's a group at school who reminds you every week of your faith. Or connecting with family and friends who will tell you what you need to hear and support you with every decision or mistake you may have.

Life is healthier when you admit to your faults and accept heartbreak and loss. Because at the end of the day, you have your people. We all have our story and we all face hardships so let's connect. This isn't a pity call. It's simply my advice to you.

Go out there, don't be okay, and start living.