Anxiety is not something that can be easily fixed in my experience. You have your good days where everything is fine and dandy and this is what I like to call "good spots". But bad days are the worst, especially when it goes on for days at a time.
Anxiety can make you/ feel as if you're on a raft in the middle of the ocean with no land in sight and a storm is approaching. But no matter how much you're prepared and no matter how calm you are, the storm comes and knocks you off the raft into the frigid ocean waters and you feel like drowning even if you have a life jacket on keeping you afloat.
It's rough. When you go through enough storms, anxiety attacks can happen and they're really unpredictable. It makes your heart hurt and it's hard to breathe and all you can do is tiny methods to make you calm down or take medication.
Medication can be a great option for some, but for me it made me feel dead inside. I lost all creative thoughts and I didn't care about anything but sleep. So I stopped cold turkey and figured that I could tackle anxiety on my own.
I have tried every method I could find on the internet: meditation, yoga, working out, counting in multiples, even attempted the six impossible things I could think of (thank you, "Alice in Wonderland").
But I have come to find out that some methods of controlling anxiety works for some people and for others it does not. Just know, NOTHING IS WRONG WITH YOU. Every single person in this world is different and all minds work differently.
For my best friend, she can listen to sad music and be fine.
For a girl I knew years ago, meditated and that worked perfectly.
For me, sad music makes it worse. And I do NOT have the patience to shut off my brain to meditate.
For me, I do the counting. 3,6,9,12.... and the six impossible things I can do.
Find whatever theory that can calm YOU down. Sure, people are always going to put their ideas out there and they can be great to consider, but you have to do what is best for you.
But please know and let others who care about you know that anxiety is not just anxiety attacks. It can be being agitated for no apparent reason when you get overwhelmed. It can be similar to depression at times when you just want to shut the whole world out and be left alone for a day or two. It can be your brain overloading and make you worry constantly.
Just remember to stay calm and breathe.
Get back on that raft after the storm.
