A leader is defined as someone who is selfless and caring. Someone who can notice a problem and handle it before it has even had time to start. A leader is someone who is always willing to be someone's helping hand and guide them through anything. Being a leader means that you inspire people through the good times and bad. But what happens when you're the one doing these things and your mind is fighting against you?
People seem to forget that those who hold leadership positions are still human. We get sad, we struggle, we have a breaking point. But what a lot of people never think about is this:
Leaders can have depression and anxiety.
You got this position because someone saw your potential. You tried for this position because you wanted to make a difference. You do so well with it all, but then one day you get this thought that lingers in the back of your mind for days and no matter what you do, it won't go away.
"What if what I'm doing isn't good enough? They probably think I'm awful at this and that I don't know how to be a good leader."
It's a constant battle of wondering if people like how you run things, or if they even look up to you at all. Sometimes you realize that you could have done something better after it's already said and done. You get sad, you get angry, you question if you should even have the position that you hold because you think you're not good enough. Sometimes you just need someone to tell you that you are doing a great job and that they appreciate everything you do and have done. It helps a lot to know that someone acknowledges how hard you work to be a good leader, but it doesn't always make those thoughts go away. Regardless of how bad you feel about yourself, you have to stand strong and realize that you are making a difference in some way, shape, or form, even if you can't see it right this second. Being a leader is hard work but I swear it's worth it. Making a name for yourself and knowing that you can do something amazing is well worth the struggle.
