After receiving notifications of death tolls, bomb threats and economy mishaps, it's easy to tell yourself that there's nothing out there for us. On the other hand, it's inevitable not to find posts on Instagram or SnapChat about how much partying your friend manages to do every single night or how many selfies they can post on their page. The possibility of a growth strayed away from all of the consistent horrific events will never happen because it's difficult to not be worried what the next move will be. But it is possible.
I find that many of my friends and acquaintances on social media tend to go on two routes. One being that every terrifying news that's been broadcast would be blasted on their feed and they would create controversy for those who don't seem to take seriousness on it. The other streams an entire selfie book on their social media with their new lipsticks and magically enhanced behinds. While observing these two parties, I wonder if this is their way of attempting to shadow their anxiety about our current events.
Everyone has their own exercises of suppressing worries. Some use alcohol and drugs as a mechanism to forget about their situations and others use hardcore work and exercise to sweat their anxieties away. Both ways always lead to a dead end, being that there's no acceptance of the world we live in.
Denial and force are components that would never create a strong characteristic. These two personalities lead into major negative outcomes where chaos is created within the self and the possibility of a growth will never be possible, which I've learned to slowly permit out of my life.
Lately, I've been extremely anxious about venturing out into a new setting because another massive shooting could happen. I create all of these scenes inside of my head and think that it's not possible to pack my things one day and call another country my home. But then I stop and reevaluate my fear of regret of not being able to travel the world and being able to share my stories. This fear of imprisonment from allowing myself to grow as a person would be the worst thing I could do to myself.
So stop posting those overly obsessive bad news reports or obnoxious selfies. This bad,bad world isn't going to go away any time soon.
