There comes a time when enough is enough.
You have been waiting for weeks, months, for that one thing to change. You spend days, nights, hoping for that person to call you back, for that person to realize what he or she has been missing. Everything would be better, and you’d feel more secure with your surroundings. Life, in a sense, would be more bearable. One day, you tell yourself, he is going to come back. He is going to want me; he is going to feel sorry.
Meanwhile, you waste away precious moments waiting, harping on this one person.
I write this because I am so guilty. Guilty of putting all my eggs in one basket, of letting one person dictate my happiness. Quite frankly, my guilt makes me sick. It is something that I never even noticed, until I realized how much time I wasted. I will never get those moments back, and because of that, this waiting is entirely wrong.
For all of you who are out there, sitting and waiting for that one person to change their mind:
You need to reevaluate your own self worth. Do you love and respect yourself? If so, then you need to stop waiting. Go out and have a good time. Don’t let someone else’s resistance be the reason you don’t have fun. If someone doesn’t want to be in your life, then it sounds like his or her loss. Think about all the people you could be meeting, in a romantic sense or otherwise.
These are days of your life that you are never going to get back. Why are you spending them depending on someone’s actions? Or inactivity?
It took me a long, long time to realize this--longer than I would like to admit. Only after I wasted moments of my life did I realize that I could have, instead, been happy. Some days, when we feel like all is lost, it is good to just sit in our bed and cry. But, after a few months of this, there comes a point where one must choose:
Is this person really worth sacrificing my own happiness and self-worth?
Because I believe things happen for a reason, I think true love shouldn’t be simple. There should be trials and tests that cause personal growth. That being said, there should be nothing but love on both sides, and this includes self-love. As the saying states, how can anyone love if they do not first love themselves? I do feel that we can easily get this wrong, as I often have. It can be easy to fall for someone without first respecting or believing in ourselves.
But how do we know who we are supposed to be with if we don’t even know ourselves?
Woah. That was a deep question there. Getting back to the point, though, I just want to say that all of this waiting--it’s unnecessary. I’m finally, after four years of my life, at precisely 12:57 in the morning, realizing all this. I’m finally fed up with waiting and stopping my life for someone, someone who may not even care about me. If that person does care, then it will be known eventually.
I am making a promise to myself to not be anyone’s second-choice--and you should, too.
