I was a child, with bright smiles and open laughter.

But knowing that I was your daughter

Didn't help with knowing that I can never really have a real smile,

Was something that I had to accept for a while.

On to middle school, where I lost most of my friends,

Really thought that my life was going to end.

Came crashing down was your luminous white fist,

And I knew that you will never, never miss.

My dreams were crushed since my friends didn't want me.

I had to go through school in huge amounts of sadness

Knowing that you would never be the one to stand beside me.

Since none of my words you ever took seriously.

My scars were hidden by the sleeves of my sweater,

Didn't matter with the changes in weather.

Those scars then grew right under my skin.

It didn't matter that we were nothing but kin.

I then started writing piles of letters

Thinking that then maybe you will understand me.

But your face showed it all,

That you will never feel my falls.

The words that came out of your mouth,

I never really wanted to hear.

So I covered my ears.

But that's when those sounds of yours began to pierce.

I began to walk off the edges

Without realizing that those thorns of their's wanted to keep me from there.

But my mind and soul already ran bare

And because of that, I just wanted to run away.

Run away from the monsters they put in me,

The jitters and the feeling of isolation they put in me.

All of the ruckus and the loud screams

Made me just want to rip out all of my seams.

But these thorns will always live through me.

People who stay are those who will forever love me.

I can't help but say these thorns won't leave

Since they will all be within me, all together and steady.