Dear ex,

You were hands down the love of my life and everything I have ever wanted. I fell for every single thing about you, from your beautiful blue-green eyes, to the way your face scrunched up every time you laughed or smiled. Meeting you was like a breathe of fresh air, and I saw it as a blessing in my life. You were the best thing that had ever happened to me, until I ruined it all.

I know people will talk and both of us will hear things about the other, but I want you to know, I never once cheated on you and I never meant to hurt you in any way whatsoever. As you know, I had a rough childhood filled with lies, neglect, and insecurity. I used my bad experience as an excuse to get away with being untrustworthy when you gave me no reason to be, clingy, and very insecure. For that, I apologize, but this is not the sole purpose as to why I’m writing this letter. I am writing this to express my guilt and disappointment in myself, and to truly apologize, whether you accept it or not.

I need you to know that hurting you was never my intention. Seeing you sad absolutely killed me inside, and to see you cry because of me was the worst feeling I’ve ever felt in my entire life. I honestly don’t know what I was thinking during our relationship, and how I thought it was okay to act the way I did. I’m sorry for all the lies, the attitude, and the false accusations. All I ever wanted to do was make you happy and love you with every inch of my body and soul. I wanted to be with you forever; I counted on it. You were the only good part of my day, and now I have nothing.

I am glad that you are finally happy and are moving on to bigger and better things in your life. I am so grateful to be able to say that you were once mine, because I will never find another you. I will never find someone as understanding, comforting, loveable, and just overall as amazing as you. The things I felt with you are things I have never and will never feel with another person, and as much as it pains me to lose you for good, I know it is only for the best; and as much as I miss you, I know you don’t miss me.

I just want you to know that you deserve nothing but the best and to not waste your time on girls who don’t make you their number one priority. You are truly one of a kind, and I hope one day you will be able to forgive me for all the pain I’ve caused you. If our paths are to cross once again in the future, please don't forget to bring back the pieces of my heart, but until we meet again, I wish you the best.

Sincerely,