Dear sadness,
The day you reached a peak, I chose to not care about you anymore, simply because I could not take it anymore. Like every human being, my survival instincts kicked in and the only thing my body and mind focused on was to forget you. To get you out of my mind.
Dear anxiety,
It was high time you left every aspect of my life. College didn't necessarily have to start the way you made it start. Just because I was a teenager when you first saw me, didn't mean you could just slide into my naive little world and snatch away my innocence. My sound happy mind. Thanks for leaving me hardened. My heart is now a sheild and I am now immune to you and all your friends.
Dear depression,
Some suggested I consult a someone who could possibly talk you out of my life, without talking to you directly. By talking to you through me. I dodn't really understand how that would work, so I didn't go. I was in no mood to be struck between appointments and having many other specialists recommended to me, until eventually I'd be handed with a prescription of things that apparently could physically remove you from my life. Everyone told me they just wanted what's best for me. I didn't listen I took nobody's suggestions into consideration. I endured. I wasn't aware of your potential for damage. Heck, I did not even sense your presence at times as you sat there next to me, listening to the sound of my electric heartbeat.
Dear madness,
I am glad you left. I am glad my family intervened against my will. Had they not taken a strong stance against you, who knows how much energy I'd had to spend in order to get rid of you myself and as a result be exhausted till death did us apart.
It took me months to realise the pain I had been expempted from and the prison I was freed from. For in that prison I dwelt in for two long years of my life. Two years I had given away to you and you played it all the way. Thanks for giving it back to me though. You left a few bruises here and there but thats okay. Two years later today, I can finally say with a smile that the bruises have healed.
You have succesfully been replaced by someone called hapiness, and today I proudly claim it for myself. Hapiness is mine to keep for as long as I can hold on to it, and protect myself from your sharp claws, your sugar-coated words, and your misleading ideas.
I'll take it everywhere with me and show it off on instagram. Whenever I reach a new height in life or unlock a new achievement, all the credits will go to my hapiness, and I'll remember to treat it with lots of love and care. I'll make it a point ot check on it from time ot time. I will tell all my friends about it and introduce it to my family. And we will live hapilly ever after.
