Why did I start writing?

Gosh is that a question I ask myself a lot. Why did I choose something that's causes me stress all the damn time?

I like writing stories, I always have. I like seeing people read my stories, I like hearing their reactions.

I like giving people some form of entertainment.

But it can be hard sometimes, really hard.

I've always written, but I never was serious until the summer of 2016. No one knows my reason for starting up again, that's something I keep to myself. I started writing a story, a book even, during that summer and for the first time I had feedback...and it was good feedback.

I knew right then that this is what I was going to do for the rest of my life.

Sometimes though, too much good word can be a bad thing.

There was a program being offered during the summer, a program that I had entered for writing, but you had to make it pass different levels to make it all the way through.

I had made it all the way to the applications stage before the semi-finals, and I did my requirements and sent in the application.

And then we wait.

Usually I can handle rejection, it's a quality I have that I actually admire about myself. I can get turned down for something and brush it off quite easily.

But then everyone is telling you you're going to make it, you're gonna get through to the semi-finals; friends, even your own parents.

After a while, sadly, you start to believe it.

That's the hard part. The results came out last week, and I didn't get in.

Sure, I was upset, but I was in school so I couldn't show it. But damn myself, my brain asked the question.

"Is this what I'm supposed to do with the rest of my life?"

Thank God that thought didn't last long.

There's not much I know in this world, but I do know that one push back won't make you fall. I love writing, and for a long time it's the only thing that's really kept me sane. Why would I fall from one little rejection, one that doesn't need to affect me?

I'm 16 years old with already 24 published articles. One fall doesn't hurt that.

This is for anyone out there two who's feeling just about the same way. Don't let one little blockade get in the way of your dream. Don't let fear, rejection, people, get in your way. Don't let one thing, or even one person, ruin the thing you love.

You are in control of your choices, although you might now be in control of the results, you are the one who has control of where you land in life.

"Find your passion and run with it. Anything is possible."

-Kendall Schmidt