When I was growing up in my tiny town, I couldn’t wait to get out of there and never come back. I was biting at the bit to leave this town and move on to bigger and better things, things that I was going to be a part of. I wanted to see the world and go to school far away from the people and town that I grew up in.
It wasn’t until a few months ago that I began to appreciate what my hometown actually did for me. It gave me a place to call home, people to care about and somewhere that I could look at and admire from a distance.
The closer I get to graduation the more that I want to find a place to call my home and someplace to live with my future husband, to raise my future children and grow my business. Being a future wedding planner has me a little concerned with finding a job and working on continuing my career. I have this thought that comes into my head at the most random times, “What happens if you never find a job in your career field and end up a failure?” Logically, I know that I will eventually find somewhere to work in the wedding industry but, it is still scary when you think about actually becoming an adult.
I eventually want to own my very own company specializing in event planning, with a focus on weddings. This has led me to be especially concerned with where I can make my start in the world of weddings. I would like to focus on a smaller town with a bigger city nearby to base my business and personal life out of. I need the population of a larger town but the smaller towns speak to me a lot more. I want somewhere where everyone knows everyone and people look out for each other.
I grew up in a small town and liked growing up there. I want the same for my children. I want to be involved in their PTO, coaching their sports and going to any event they are involved in. but, I know that I need somewhere to call my own and someplace to become my own person.
Becoming your own person is similar to becoming an adult; scary as hell and you never feel like you know what you’re doing. You have to figure out your values and what’s important to you in life. Whether it is money that is your biggest concern, a family or even a career; this is not something that you can get from your parents or the people who raised you.
I’m terrified about growing up and all that but I’m even more terrified of becoming someone that my family wouldn’t be proud to call family. This is all part of the process and I know that I can do this without returning to my home. You feel as if you are taking three steps backward when you go home instead of moving forward in your life. Whatever you choose to do with your life, make sure you make it a good one ‘cause you only get one life to live.
