Hello beautiful,
You with those glistening eyes and contagious laughter. You who smiles and carries herself lightly, and not too seriously. You who laughs at almost anything and likes to be silly. I know what you are going through, I know what you've gone through. There are very few of us who are lucky (and doomed) enough to feel, see, understand, wish, appreciate, and love as we do. Hey, I am not saying that there is anything wrong with being who we are. It is certainly no easy task living in a world where we are taught to be desensitized and that feeling too much is wrong. We are not weak. We just feel too deeply, fall in love too quickly. With. Every. Pretty. Little. Thing.
I used to believe that I was a little off, you know, a little too different. Crazy, even. That I loved the sky, the sun, the moon, and stars a little too intensely. That I loved the way the ocean soothed yet excited me a little too deeply. That I loved flowers beyond words. That I fell in love about fifty times a day as I saw beautiful people pass me in the hallways of the school, in coffee shops, or even on stop signs and red lights; and that it was wrong. Hey, a girl can look! The way I loved how people played musical instruments, how I observed their fingers do magic. How I fell in love with the sounds that came out of the mouths of people who sang or how the rhythm and swaying of the bodies of people dancing moved me and gave me goosebumps all over my body. How I loved the details in people's physical features. The way I love watching their eyes sparkle when they talk. Or watching how their lips move when they speak and then see them form a smile. Even how they use their hands when they talk and how they grab and style their hair. Maybe even how I love food and eating. Point is, There is nothing wrong with love, seeing love, feeling love, or falling in love.
But can a girl fall in love so many times? Is that healthy?
Being someone who falls in love with every simple, silly, small thing so easily is definitely a hassle It's complicated because every time you fall in love is your heart destined to break? Does your heart break often? One plus one is two, so love and love equals happiness, but what happens when love is only one sided? What happens when you fall in love with a city you have to leave soon or with a boy who is not the one? What happens when you love someone so much, but not the way they love you back? What happens when you love the sky too much you forget to look down? Or when you love stories, fairy tales, and myths that you are stuck in that world and you are not living your own life? What happens when you fall in love and it clearly isn't "right" for you, but boy did it feel good at the time? What happens when you love so many people but forget to love yourself? What happens when you love love love? Do you run out of love?
Today, I am here to tell you to keep on loving. Keep falling in love with everything and everyone! There is no shame in being someone who feels. In the world where everything is so complicated and scary, it is truly refreshing (and breathtakingly beautiful) to find an individual like yourself. So yeah, it is hard. I will not deny that but keep your chin up and your heart open because trust me, everyone wishes they were a little bit like us. Heartbreaks and heartaches are worth it. Even the most guarded wish that they had the ability to open up, to feel, to love, to be someone who falls in love with every pretty little thing. Just like you and me do.
