I never really thought much of the fact that I was 16 and he was 24. I was just excited that I was talking to an older guy when I was still in high school.
I remember the day like it was yesterday. He texted me while I was in school and asked me if I was still coming over his place. I replied yeah as long as you get me grapes (everyone that knows me, knows that I love grapes). I was so eager to get out of class, it was Friday and I was about to go chill with this cute guy. Now normally I'd go to an after school program so I knew my mom wouldn't worry about where I was as long as I left this guys house by 10pm.
The bell rang and I literally ran out of that school. While I was walking to this guys apartment building I couldn't stop smiling. I couldn't stop thinking about what was going to happen considering we had nothing planned. All I knew was that he and I were going to chill and he had grapes.
There I was one block away from his building. My heart was beating faster, I never chilled with a guy who had his own place let alone someone that was so much older than me. I called him and told him to come down so that he was outside when I got there, and he was...smiling with grapes in his hand.
We walked up to his apartment and all I remember was how bare it was. There were no pictures on the wall, no couch in the living room. Just a kingsize bed and a TV in the bedroom, with a desk. Couldn't forget the desk. We were telling jokes to kind of break the awkward silence; I guess he could kind of tell that I was uncomfortable.
"So what do you want to do?"
I wasn't even sure why he asked that question because he should've had some idea of what we were going to do considering it was his place and he's the one who asked me if I wanted to chill. So, I just told him that we could watch a scary movie. He put on SAW VI and I told him that I don't really like blood so we should watch something else. That's when I found out that he was in medical school studying to be a nurse because he told me that he would specifically show me how everything was fake and how he uses some of the movie props in his class when practicing on a dummy patient.
So about 45 minutes into the movie he came over to me. Just to give you an image I was sitting on a chair near the window and he was sitting on a chair near the TV, we were a couple of feet away from each other. When he came over to me, he kissed me and in my head I was like "YES! SCORE!". I got up and giggled then he pushed me to the wall and started kissing me. It was rough and I never experienced anything like that so I was a little taken back. But, I went with it so that he wouldn't think that I was wack.
It was pretty dark. The only light in the apartment came from the television. I just remember him pushing me on the bed and he started putting his hand down my pants. I told him to stop because I was a virgin and I wasn't trying to have sex with him. That's not how I wanted to lose my virginity and that's not how I was going to.
He asked me to turn over so I did. I felt him pull my pants down a little bit. At the time, I didn't know some people had sex from the back. Then I felt his penis touch the crack of my butt. I kicked him in his balls with the back of my sneaker and ran out of that apartment building so fast. I just ran. I was running, I was crying, and my adrenaline was so high because I was so scared. But, I was so happy nothing worse happened. It could've been a whole different scenario if I took my shoes off.
