Have you ever had trouble getting to sleep? Or even had trouble just staying to sleep once you finally get there? It sucks, right?

Now, imagine that happening every night and you have a small understanding of what it's like to be an insomniac.

Oh, I know, I know, there's sleeping pills and I could see a doctor and blah, blah, blah. I know, thanks. But there's another problem with that.

I don't have time for sleeping pills.

If you take a sleeping pills, they are guaranteed to stay in your system for eight hours because that's the ideal amount of sleep your body needs, but quite often you feel drowsy for a bit after waking up and, if they don't get the dosage right, it could last longer.

Not to mention my strange, unending fear of sleep paralysis. I know sleep paralysis happens every night but I fear the day my mind wakes up before my body and I open my eyes and see the messed up shit that's in my dreams in front of me or standing in my doorway. That is my worst nightmare, honestly.

But insomnia is a great time for all those thoughts to fester. Those are actually the thoughts I have when I know I'm awake before I should be and before I open my eyes. Not only is the insomnia not good for me physically, it's also making me living alone worse, I think.

On the other hand, this is also the first time in my years of having insomnia that I have tried to solve it. Not with pills, obviously you know my thoughts on that, but other ways. ASMR videos have been really helpful, I think, because I've found I don't have much trouble sleeping when someone I love is sleeping next to me, whether we're cuddled up or not even touching. Just the sound of someone's voice close by soothes my mind into thinking that I'm not alone and someone else is here to watch over me.

This is just how I take care of it. I'm no doctor, but if you struggle with mild insomnia as well and your mind just won't shut up when you're in bed alone, it doesn't hurt to give it a try, right?