Last weekend my best friend got married. At 20 years old, I am in no way ready nor do I have any urge to get married anytime soon. Alas, for the second time in my life I got the dreaded, "you're next!" Just the thought of it makes me cringe.

Growing up I always knew my parents were high school sweethearts and had gotten married at a pretty young age. For a long time, I had this delusion that I would date one person and we would end up getting married, but obviously, that didn't work out. Even going off to college I remember telling people that I really didn't care what I ended up doing, I just wanted to get married. Looking back I have no idea who that person was or what she was thinking.

In an episode of Sex and the City, Enid says, "The key to having it all is to stop expecting it to look like what you thought it was supposed to look like." I think I just always expected that one day I would be swept off my feet and the older I got the more I realized that's just not the way things happen and 40-50% of marriages end in divorce. My parents found their happiness in each other and I had convinced myself that was what I needed as well.

After a few short-lived relationships and a couple god awful dates, I realized I was going to have to find my happiness in something else. When I stopped focusing on the people I could date and started focusing on myself, I (in the least corny way possible) "found myself." I became interested in film and I got back into reading books, something that I hadn't bothered doing in years. I learned that I am actually really interested in politics and photography. I decided to major in Communication and pursue a career in PR.

When I think about my future, I see me and no one else. Because it's my future. Maybe my mother is right and maybe one day I'll get swept off my feet, but for now, my feet are planted firmly on the ground and I have found passions and ambition that I never knew I had.