I've had ADHD inattentive for my entire life and have become familiar with how it affects me. I first off would like to say people with ADHD don't always have the same experiences, and this is my personal account of it. ADHD inattentive basically means I am less hyperactive than predominantly hyperactive-impulsive and combined type; so many people don't even realize or even believe I have ADHD.

How has this affected my college experience? I, myself, thrive off of change and constant stimulation. The first few months I felt on top of the world. There was so much to learn, see, and do. I met so many new people and made real friendships. Now a few months in, I feel trapped. I'm trapped in the routine of classes and the same company of people. I'm not saying I don't love my friends or my major but for some reason, I always feel restless.

I constantly feel like I'm running towards something, but I don't know what. Sometimes I feel like I'm running from something, maybe even myself. The routine of classes doesn't give me comfort like most people but makes me anxious. I hate the thought of the day not being in my control. I hate going to lecture because I know I'll only be an annoyance to the people around me. I can't sit still for long periods of time, and I catch myself drifting off into my imagination quite frequently. Since my mind is constantly going, sleep is anything but regular. Sometimes, I can't sleep because my mind won't turn off, and other times I'll sleep fourteen hours and wake up ready to go back to bed. This makes it extra difficult to make solid study habits and makes going to class that much worse.

But throughout my experience here, I don't regret coming. I know anything else I would've done I'd still have the same struggles because ADHD is a part of me, and you can't outrun yourself.