First up, I want to thank you for helping me mature into the person I am today. Our times together were fun while they lasted and the heartbreak that comes along with it has shown me how to stand on my own two feet.

I've never been in a relationship. (Gasp)

Well, that is, I have not an official relationship but those were still happy times.

I've had flings, I've had crushes and one-sided loves. Everything but a stable relationship.

Sometimes it was because the other was afraid of commitment, sometimes they just never realized the emotions I had for them were empowering and I wanted to be more than just friends; sometimes I ruined any possible outcome with my overthinking.

Every time I see a couple walking on the street and holding hands, I mentally roll my eyes. No offense to you all who are in a relationship but I guess this is what has become of me after being heartbroken multiple times. You all do have the right to enjoy your time with your significant other and be happy :)

Even though I've been hurt, even though I've cried myself to sleep for so many nights. I'm still fine.

Thinking back on those moments: the late night talks, going to the movies, the bickering; those tiny details and moments were shining so brightly in my dark and lonely mind. I was happy, I am still happy.

People come and go but you should never change yourself to suit others. Do not ever doubt your self-worth. You are a beautiful star in the sky and you should do what you do best and that is to shine brightly.

I've had my downs and insecurities but I also realized that the moment you start loving yourself is the moment everything seems to finally fall in place.

Don't ever feel alone or lonely in this vast world, people all start from the same square one and walk on different paths in life. Some will come and give you joy but that doesn't mean they will be there for you forever because the only ones who will stay by your side are your parents. Learn to appreciate the people who do come, whether it be friends, boyfriends or girlfriends.

So, on a personal note. To all the boys I've loved before, thank you for giving me those shining moments in my teens. The little gestures you did for me like open the door or not letting me walk on the outer edge of the sideway did and still does bring butterflies to my stomach. I'm sad that things never worked out for us but still glad we all walked on our own paths of finding happiness.

Hopefully, our paths might cross one day and we can catch up.