I walked up to the door of the psychologist's office and I froze. What was I doing? Why was even here? I went to free counseling at my college every once in a while, so why did I need this? I'm not crazy, am I?
The thoughts spiraled. I had been dealing with anxiety since the 5th grade and had only recently started taking it seriously. I tried getting help from a college counselor, but I was getting worse. I needed more help.
For those dealing with mental illness, it can be scary getting help. It's one thing to break your arm and go to the doctor, but when it's something no one can see, it makes it hard to decide when things are "bad enough" to get help.
Everyone judges things differently, and nothing is truly better or worse than anything else when it comes to mental illness. Oftentimes, people don't think they need help because they don't think their feelings are "bad enough" or that there are many others who have it worse.
While there is a spectrum of mental illnesses and some people are more functioning than others, there is no scale to determine when you do or do not need help. If it causes you distress, get help.
Mental health is just as important as physical health. I'll say it again. Mental health is just as important as physical health. Just because your friends and family can't see it, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. It is real and valid. Your brain is an organ, just like your heart, stomach, and lungs and it requires the same care and consideration.
Also, people struggling with their mental health often think they're crazy or that no one else could possibly feel that way. Stop! This is not true. You aren't alone! You are not crazy and lots of people deal with various types of mental illness that they simply never talk about.
I've found that once you start talking openly about your struggles, you will find many others who have similar feelings. It is encouraging to find others who can relate and sympathize with your problems.
Find a support group, go to counseling, practice self-care, talk to a friend, or talk to your doctor about medication options. Do whatever it takes to take care of yourself and your mind. Seeking help does not mean you're crazy or weak. You are strong for taking steps to care for yourself.
After my appointment that day, I felt better. I was so scared before, but I had no need to be. My counselor was kind and validated my feelings, letting me know that I was not alone and was not crazy. She even helped me make a plan for my future in therapy, helping me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I felt hopeful.
So do it. Go get help if you are in distress. It is insanely important that you take care of your emotional health because it affects everything you say and do and how you live your life. It is up to you to get help. Take the leap of faith and seek help today.