Some people just have never been very trusting. We have had situations which have shaped and formed us to not trust people. We have had things that shape us into who we are and those of us who struggle with understanding love and relationships, we live so differently.
We are always anxious. The anxiety that no one will stay or love us is a very real ideal. We sit up night after night beating ourselves up over all the dumb things we did. We wonder if we were too loud or too different. We can't breathe and we can't see when this starts. We know that tomorrow everyone will leave and then we sleep.
We struggle so much with relationships, and we jump from relationship to relationship. We think that nothing will ever work out, and because of that we pick all the wrong guys. We know ahead of time that they will fail us that they are not enough for us, but we don't care because we know that either way we are going to get hurt so we just let it happen.
The love of another person seems like such a distant thought. Friends and boyfriends go and come consistently and honestly most times, it is our faults. We shove people away pretty quickly due to the fact that we assume, naturally, everyone is gonna leave. Most of our lives people have walked out or been absent, and that is what made us this way.
We live so differently in the way we speak to people and how we interact with them. We care and love people more than life because we know how precious relationships truly are. The best thing is that we do not take life for granted. We notice the tiny miracles in life and we smile.
When we make friends that do stick around we love them so much harder. We check on them throughout the week and we hold them tight every day. We make sure their needs are put above ours and we even put their health above ours.
When we get into serious relationships with people we truly care about, we live differently. We cling in the most beautiful way. We hold them dear to our hearts and we make sure they always feel loved. We shower them in affection and gifts because we know at the end of the day they may not be around forever.
We live in a such a beautifully different way. We see the world in our heads so beautifully different. We love and help others with such an open caring heart even if we don't think they will do the same in return, and when we get into friendships that last, we hold them so dear to our hearts. We love so differently because we don't know exactly how to love and trust, and that makes our world beautiful.
