Nike had it right with their slogan all along. "Just Do It" is a perfect mantra for anyone who feels like they're in a rut. I found myself stuck in the mud recently, and the only thing that produced any positive results was a whole day of going for the little things that I had wanted randomly.
I woke up one morning and went downstairs to make some tea. As I waited for the water to boil on the stove, I saw my reflection in the dark glass of the microwave. As I stared at myself for a while I wasn't just unsatisfied with what I saw but slightly upset. Not because I hate my nose or my ears stick out too much, but because of the way I've been acting so unmotivated the past few weeks. Realizing my problem was the easy part. But to fix it, well, I was completely lost.
I was dreading the next two months. Starting three new jobs, going back to school, and moving into a new dorm with a new roommate sounded like a lot of expended energy to me. The problem wasn't that I would be tired after moving all my stuff, or after a couple long shifts. I would be tired after interacting with at least a dozen new people within a week and then continuing to work on my relationships with them for months.
I'm a strong girl so I knew I could do it, that wasn't the problem. It was the foreboding of the situation that left me curled up in my bed binge watching.
I contemplated what I could do for myself and the immediate answers were to clean my room completely, shower and then dress in my favorite sweater and leggings. Great, but then I thought again. That's what I do every time I find myself in a feelings pickle. Sure, the solution is fine for the day but then come the morning I would have feelings deja vu.
Finally, I had a breakthrough. I texted my best friend and set the plans for the day. When we embarked on our mission we joked about how today was a transformation day, but in my head, I was like, "Well, yea duh this is what I need!"
So we first got to the piercing and tattoo parlor. I have always said I wouldn't get ear piercing because my huge hair hides my ears most of the time, so what would be the point? Whenever I saw an ear full of pretty metal I always got a little jealous.
Finally, I saw one more picture of a cartilage piercing and it was over. I wanted it. Just because 75% of the time my piercing would be hidden, didn't mean that I couldn't get it for my own pleasure. Plus, 25% of the time I would be working it. I sat in the chair and cringed a little but acted like a champ while the piece of metal went into my ear. Part one of my mission done.
Next, I went to the local Walgreens and picked out a box of hair dye. I've been wanting to color my hair forever but didn't have the funds for a salon and always just dropped the issue. Well, not today. Part two of my mission halfway done.
We went back to my house and lathered my hair in the dye, which turned out way darker than I expected. I'm not one to obsess over my hair color. I change it pretty frequently so the wrong color was just more exciting to me.
As I washed out the dye I took out scissors and cut off my dead ends. I know this sounds crazy but my hair is crazy curly, get's straightened twice year tops, and I've cut it a million times before. Trimming off dead ends of curly hair makes an insane difference for the curls when it dries. So finally part two complete.
Part three was composed of my original plan of cleaning, showering, and putting on my favorite sweater. When it all was said and done, I watched a movie with my friends and felt way happier than I did a few hours earlier. Oh, and I was eating taco bell. I shamelessly love taco bell so that was just the cherry on top of my cake of a day.
What I'm trying to say is, sometimes you just need some change in your life. I know I can roll with the punches but thinking about the punches that were coming made me want to hide. The whole day helped take my mind off my future two months and just focus on me and being happy.
Even though the changes wouldn't be recognizable to a passerby, to me they were super exciting and that was the whole point. So, does any one want to go to the salon with me? I'm thinking bangs next.