I have really been struggling with my depression and anxiety more than ever especially with not attending therapy regularly anymore but have found some solace in my writing. I feel like my depression and anxiety is currently keeping me from fully living my life so I have decided to take this time to write a letter to my darkness so that other people can know that they aren't alone in their mental illness. I want to be able to look back on this letter and know that I rose above my mental illness. I want to know where I was in my past and hopefully be in a better place.
Dear depression,
I am tired. I am tired of you keeping me from going out or having enough energy to make it through my days.
I'm tired of not being able to go to class or getting bad grades because of you.
I'm tired of crying because of you.
I'm tired of having to take medication every morning because of you especially when I don't think it's working.
I am tired of not being able to make it to therapy.
I am absolutely exhausted from being afraid to get close to people out of fear that it is going to make me crawl into a deeper spiral of depression.
I want to be happy again.
I am tired of people not believing in you.
I am tired of not being able to trust people.
I am tired of the horrible thoughts that you put into my head.
It's hard for people to deal with me and it's because I have to deal with you every day.
Please go away,
The girl who is tired of struggling