When I was a little middle schooler, I thought seniority rights were everything and freshman should fear the upperclassman. I then became a high schooler and soon the upperclassman became the friends I couldn't live without. It seems to be a common occurrence, especially in a small school like mine. I began to realize that age didn't really matter and that they would love you as as if you've been friends forever. They offered you advice and you even gave them some here and there. Then the day came when you had to say goodbye and it ended up being one of the hardest goodbyes.
It's such a hard goodbye. How do you say goodbye to a friend who you've known for a year or two yet they still managed to change your life? I seriously wonder how we all of sudden got so close and just like that I couldn't imagine my life without you. Just like that you worry if they're going to graduate and forget all about you when they go to college. You worry that you were just a person they knew back in high school. You worry that they're going to leave home for college and everything would change as they are ripped away from your everyday life.
I think back and it’s pretty weird how it all happened. I went my whole life barely being understood and not fitting in with any group. Then one day you came along and changed everything. I always felt like I was a little different and that I didn’t belong here but all it took was one person to come along and make me feel right. Maybe I just matured a little fast but whatever it was you made me feel as if I belonged for the first time in my life.
I want you to know that I'll always look up to you but it's more than that now. I trust you as if you were my best friend and love you like a sister. You gave me something to believe in and accepted me as I always was. I'm a little hyper sometimes and other times I'm extremely lazy. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me but sometimes all I needed was someone who actually understood me. There were days when I was falling apart but somehow you have always been able to break through and save me.
I hate that one day soon we won’t be apart of each other's everyday life. You’ve been so encouraging to me the past few years and believed in me when no one else did. It’s hard to let go of such a big part of my life. You have always been able to make my life a little better just by simply being in it. You've taught me a lot about myself and I can't thank you enough for all you've done for me. Thank you for loving me through everything and never giving up on me. Thank you for being my best friend, my counselor, my mom, my sister, my #1 fan, and everything else. Thank you for coming into my life and showing me everything that I’m worth.
