He said he didn't want anything more...he was too hurt from the person before..he got his heart broken and he promised himself never again..nothing was going to change his mind no matter how witty or charming you are.

Makes sense...I could relate and felt the same way..the anxiety of a significant other going out to a party with lots of pretty girls who are dressed in something so tight they can barely breathe on top of having a lonely heart. When you care about someone so much and you put them before you, it can get dangerous and you can lose your complete sense of self.

So they flirt with your person and that either makes you two stronger or destroys you.I t either shows you trust each other or it shows you don't...and if you don't..well I'm sorry, things just got harder.

So when someone tells me they're scared..I believe them. Having someone look at you point out all your flaws and leave is the worst feeling. I wouldn't wish that on anyone in this entire world.

But being scared isn't an excuse..if they really wanted you..they would make it happen. The things I notice with guys is that they fall first... but us girls try to act so cold and tough as if they can't hurt or touch us because of the fact that we as well have been hurt before..so amaze us, show us why I should invest my time into you. But girls..we fall harder, so we hurt more in the end. Those of us who speak up too loud, and refuse to settle for less..well we get hurt even more.

And it's not because something is wrong with us, it's because we are the girls they could see more than a few years with...the real deal.

That's what I'm choosing to believe after watching myself get deleted and blocked because I didn't want to wait for such an unsure thing..I know who I am and I care deeply and I want nothing less back. Sorry. I always look back and think well maybe if I didn't have standards and I didn't have to look so hard. Sorry that I'm not #1.