There is one thing a girl wants: to be loved. To be loved to the point where there are no questions asked. To be loved to the point she's never self conscious about it. To be loved to the point she never questions it or worries about whether or not the person will ever leave her. To be loved to the point all she wants is that person forever.

A girl wants to love and be loved in return, and nothing more.

But there's also something a girl fears: to be broken by love. To cry over someone that once said they loved them but then turned around and said things they couldn't even begin imagine. To feel their heart silently being ripped into two when things are done before them by their loved ones that hurt, but they never say anything because they worry about being "bitchy" or "controlling". To feel the anxiety over someone when they feel their loved one slipping away and they know it's their own fault.

Girls want to be loved but are scared to be broken by love, at least I am.

I've built my walls, and let me tell you there are plenty. I've also let people knock some walls down; a risky decision because I know the farther they get the worse they can hurt me. The farther they get the more vulnerable and more worried and self-conscious I become. The farther they get the harder I fall.

So I protect myself, or at least I try to. Whenever I feel someone breaking down walls I try my hardest to build them back up when they aren't looking. I shut them out and fight with them so they feel less inclined to even try with me. I try to make them feel like it's not worth it, so I'm not the one worrying about when they come to that decision on their own accord.

I want love, but I don't want the worry and the stress and the anxiety that comes with it. I want love, but I don't want the vulnerability and the questioning and the self-consciousness that comes with it. I want love, but I'm terrified of what it might do to me. I want to be loved, but I fear being broken by it.