One time, I was talking to a friend about rock music. He told me about how much he loves going to concerts, about what an experience it is. I told him that I actually don't like concerts. He stared like I had three heads. "I think you're the only person I've ever met who likes rock music but hates concerts." Well... everybody has their claim to fame I guess.
It got me thinking, and it seemed to confirm a suspicion that I've had my entire: I'm no fun. I don't like getting drunk, I've never gotten high (nor will I ever; personal choice, not judgment), I don't like to go out dancing, I don't really like meeting new people, crowds, excessive noise, or staying up too late. You know, all the normal things that young people are supposed to do to enjoy themselves and acquire wild stories for the future.
Sometimes it makes me want to cry: look at that poor girl who never wants to have fun, who's wasting her wild young years, who doesn't like to meet new people and make friends, who never wants to go out and get noticed and have a good time.
But I bring myself back down. There's no right way to have fun. If I am doing things that I enjoy, I am living life right despite what it seems like everyone else is doing. If I want to pass on a night out in favor of an early morning out, is that really a bad thing? If I'd rather go for a long walk with a friend then out dancing, is that a waste?
You know what is a waste? Shelling out money for concert tickets even though you think they are way too loud and just wait for them to be over the entire time. Making yourself go out to a bar and being miserable and uncomfortable the whole time is a waste. Doing things you hate that are "fun" for the sake of not missing out is an absolute waste.
I'm sure there are others out there like me. Maybe you're introverted, or shy, or have social anxiety. Maybe you're a morning person and the rest of your group are night people. Maybe you don't have a "squad." Maybe you watch too many scary movies and are constantly afraid that everyone out there is Buffalo Bill, waiting to trap you in the basement and wear your skin (I will admit that's why I don't like talking to strangers). Maybe you just don't like doing certain things, and it's hard to get excited about going out with your friends.
Do what truly makes you happy. Maybe you live for going for walks with a friend, or painting, or going to the beach. Find your absolute source of ultimate joy and run towards it full speed. And if you occasionally feel like doing something you normally dislike? Don't stop yourself! Go to that concert or huge party, but only because you feel like it.
Don't feel like you have to change for other people. Don't feel like you're missing out if you are doing things that make you happy. Don't throw yourself a pity party; it's not the type of party you need in your life. Laugh at people's disbelief when you tell them you hate concerts, or bars, or dancing. Embrace your claim to fame! Be persistent that you don't enjoy being drunk and no you don't want that shot. No seriously I don't want it. Don't be afraid to try new things, but if you know for 100 percent sure you are not feeling this, don't feel like you have to. Have your own kind of fun.
