Dear Ex- Best Friend,

We haven't talked in about five months... Five months of silence, five months of laughs without you, five months of not knowing what is going on. I can assure, loosing a best friend is worse than loosing a significant other. There is not a day that goes by where I don't think about what happened. Everyday I have that urge to text you, to tell you everything about my day. Everything that I'm stressing about. A year ago, I would have never thought we would not be talking. This time last year, we were getting our Halloween costumes together. You were Superman, I was Batman. I see irony in that. Superman and Batman didn't get along... just like us now. We drifted, drifted in opposite paths that seem to never meet again.

This isn't the first time we stopped talking. Our path originally drifted back in March. For the same reason we aren't talking now. We walked the same path for about two months. Then I blew up.

I am still shocked that our friendship is over. I know its my fault, but now I wish everything would go back to how it used to be. I miss the long car rides. I miss the late night road trips. I miss the shopping trips. I miss the fog chasing. I miss the Snapchat streaks. Everything about our relationship, I miss.

Like I said, this is liking a break up with a significant other. You basically were my other half. We did everything together, we were inseparable. Some days, I wish you would just show up at my house like you used to. Yelling: "get in the car, we are going on adventure!" Our car rides were the best. Blasting music, telling stories, getting everything off our chest. We were basically dating. Talking all the time about everything. There was no one else I wanted to be with.

I miss you. I really do. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for stopping our friendship. But it wasn't the same. We both changed. We were different people, and we still are. There were changes that neither of us could handle. I thought it would be better for the both of us if we just stopped our friendship. But now I am miserable everytime I think about what we used to be. I sound like I am talking about a break up, I basically am. If we could go back to the way things used to be, I would in a heart beat. But I know if we tried to be friends now, it wouldn't be the same. Life went on after we stopped talking. Things changed even more. We replaced each other, found new best friends. But nothing will ever replace that relationship we had. Nothing. Not one person. As much as we think someone can replace each other, it will never happen. We can try as hard as we want, but no one will have the experience and the memories that we share.

I hope that one day our paths will cross again, maybe we will walk on the same path again. It will be a long journey before then. We will walk across some broken roads. But if we can fix our relationship and come to terms with each other, our friendship could be as strong as it once was; maybe even stronger.

I am really sorry for what happened. Like I said, not a day goes by that I don't miss you, or think about you. I still love you. And I wanted to let you know I am ready. Ready to mend and create that friendship again. I have forgiven you, but I know you may never forgive me... I'm sorry, I really am. I miss you and want you back in my life. I want that sister bond back. I love you and always have, never stopped. I hope you see this, I hope we can fix our relationship. But until then... good luck, and best wishes.

I love you so much...

Sincerely,

Your Ex- Best Friend