I'm taking a page out of Lara Jean's book, saying everything I wish I'd said to my high school and college crushes. Don't worry, the names have been changed to keep them anonymous.
Christian
Christian, I have had my share of bad dates, but you truly take the cake. Won't cough up $2 for a slice of pizza, but you'll go shopping with me after and treat yourself to $20 sunglasses? I see how it is. I don't always expect the guy to pay, but if you tell me you wanna 'take me out' to a nice lunch, then you're offering to pay. Also, you kissed me without my permission, after I had told you no...not cool.
Tyler
Tyler, you were the first gentleman I ever knew. So polite and courteous, and not because you had to be, but because it was who you were, who you wanted to be. You were also a star athlete, we ran track together, and you managed to stay humble and down-to-earth. But then you moved away. You told me you'd miss me when you were gone. I was afraid to say I'd miss you too. I didn't want you to know I liked you. But I did. I missed you.
Leo
Leo, you became an asshole. We started off as best friends, and you had a girlfriend. I had a tiny crush on you, but I never said or did anything and eventually got over it. But the second she dumped you, you were all over me, and it was overwhelming. I just wanted to be friends, but you had other ideas. To you, Leo, and to all the boys reading, unsolicited dick pics are never a good idea!
Daniel
Daniel, you were my very first high school crush. You were shy and quiet, and I was bubbly and talkative. I was determined to get you to come out of your shell. Looking back on it, my flirting wasn't very subtle, so you probably knew, but you were kind enough not to say anything to hurt my feelings. Thanks for that.
Carson
Carson, you are one of my oldest friends. We go way back, further than anyone else on this list. We grew up in the same friend group together, but I didn't know that you knew who I was until high school. You were popular, and I was a wallflower at best, even though we went to a small school. But you were nice, you spoke to me—asked me how my day was. When I was down, you were genuinely concerned. You have an honest, caring heart, and I love that about you.
Owen
Owen, you were secretly a douchebag. You had the nice-guy act down perfectly, but we went out on one date and I saw your true colors. A shallow, self-absorbed ass. I can't believe I asked your ex if it was cool for us to go out. She dumped you for a reason, that was made very clear to me. You can't buy love, Owen.
Ryan
Ryan, you were my first, big crush. I didn't mean to fall for you, honestly, we were just best friends and I had a crush that turned into an even bigger crush. When I finally moved past it I had to know if you had ever felt the same way, so I asked you. You told me no. Thank God you were too drunk to remember the next day. Maybe I'll tell you again one day when you can stand up without having to lean on a wall. I still care about you, but not in that way anymore.
Carter
Carter, you were the one I told myself I'd wait for. That was stupid. Why would I sit around for a crush who didn't even go to my school? We only met twice, but after spending almost the entire night hanging out with you and your friends, you had me ready to put my love life, or lack thereof, on hold in the hopes that you'd come through for me. You didn't, but I can't blame you. I shouldn't have waited.
