I'm not one to take fortune cookies to heart; however, my Chinese takeout dinner meant a lot to me last night. It said, "You will be fortunate in the opportunities presented to you." I've always loved food, but last night, it truly moved me. I'm not talking about bowl movement, but my feels. My emotions. I spent the rest of my night contemplating the opportunities and feeling thankful.

I was driving back home this evening, and I couldn't help but look around me once the light turned red. I realized how far I've come. A few years ago, I thought I was going nowhere. I was frustrated with the dreams I had as they seemed unreachable. They seemed unrealistic. I thought I was going to be stuck in one place forever, doing something I don't enjoy and never venturing out there. I was scared of never leaving. I was terrified of never feeling terrified. I wanted to be scared. I wanted to be challenged. I knew that if I tested myself and my potential, I'd get a lifetime opportunity out of it.

Looking back, I thought trying to get anywhere was pointless. It's frightening to admit this, but I was ready to give up and succumb to whatever life would throw at me. I couldn't see beyond my situation, and I was ready to give into it. However, none of my loved ones ever let me crawl into that space for too long. They knew it would demolish my spirit. To win back a positive and determined spirit is a challenge I remember quite vividly.

One hasn't felt the true definition of defeat until they have utterly lost the energy to get out of bed. Not being able to get out of bed, dress up and show up is one of the most frustrating emotions out there. Slowly but surely, I was reminded by loved ones that nothing lasts forever. They used words that I utilized to help inspire them when they needed it. My grandma once said, "Always remember, previous circumstances don't define you and can make you stronger."

Here I am, Grandma. I'm stronger. I promise. I decided to get out of bed, dress up and show up. If my life doesn't end up being what I want it to be, then I can only blame myself. I am working toward my happiness, and content. I'm the one person who has to sleep at night.

We are all working toward the best version of ourselves; however, we can never forget where we started. Who we are today is not a result of who we were yesterday, but a sign of persistence. Self-awareness is the first step to a better self. Be aware, be there, and don't forget who you were. Be your own inspiration.