To many people, depression is just being sad. But really, it goes way beyond that and many don't understand.

Depression is laying in the bed for three days straight and only getting up to go to the bathroom and get something to drink, and having to text everyone back in between breaks from napping, apologizing for not responding because you took a nap. And then getting the same response from everyone: "Again?"

Depression is relying on those three pills to get you through the day, and hope that they actually work.

Depression is constant online shopping, so that you have at least another reason to get out of the bed to go check the mail.

Depression is missing important events that you really wanted to attend, but physically and mentally couldn't find the energy to go.

Depression is waiting until the very last minute to do something, and then putting half of the effort that you should've put into it.

Depression is acting out to try and cover up the person that you don't want to be anymore.

Depression is doubting every situation that is presented before you, because "pessimistic" is your new middle name.

Depression is having to keep multiple sizes of pants in your closet because your weight fluctuates so much.

Depression is weekly trips to the psychiatrist, dreading going, but knowing you need to go.

Depression is getting all dressed up, looking your best, but still not feeling confident.

Depression is giving up on something that you love.

Depression is being a disappointment to people for breaking promises that you made but didn't keep.

Depression is not being able to maintain relationships because you put people off for naps.

Depression is soaking your pillow daily with tears.

Depression is sitting in class or work, and thinking about everything except what you should be thinking about.

Depression is constantly having to explain that you do not have a attitude.

Depression is what I am, but not what I want to be...

So please be patient, we are trying to change, trust me. We don't like living like this, nor do we want to. We want to live happy, energetic and optimistic. Unfortunately, this is not a change that can happen over night. It is an obstacle in life that we have to face head on, and for some it takes more time to get over than others...

But,

depression is not going to defeat me.