Dear loved one in Heaven,
Some time has passed now since you were here on Earth with me. Not much has changed, yet nothing is the same since I last heard you say my name. Thoughts of you pop up in my mind at the most random times. Little things in life cause your memory to come flooding my mind and sometimes my eyes.
Yes, sometimes I still cry. The selfish side of me wishes you were still here. There are days I long to hear your voice, your laugh, and even your jokes that you’ve told hundreds of times. Sometimes I see quotes reflecting someone who has passed away, or I hear songs such as Diamond Rio’s: "One More Day," and then I catch myself wondering what I would do if I had one more day with you. Would I want to sit and talk for hours and maybe ask to hear all of those jokes again or would I want to sit in silence just holding on and cherishing one last hug?
The selfish side of me certainly does wish you were still here, but other parts are envious, and happy, and motivated, and thankful. I’m envious of you and happy for you because you get to walk with Jesus. You get to sing the most breathtaking tunes amongst angels. You get to spread your wings and fly high in a glorious place greater than anything I could ever even dream of. I’m motivated because there is absolutely no doubt you’re in Heaven having more fun than you ever have had. I’m motivated to become a better person, to strengthen my Christian values, and to come closer to God in every way possible because one day I want to join you in your new home.
I like to think you’d be proud of the person I have worked so hard to become through the motivation you’ve left me. I’m thankful because I had the opportunity to know you. Our time together wasn’t nearly long enough but in the time we did have together, you made more of an impact on my heart than you, or even I, ever knew. I’m thankful that I was so blessed to know, and love, such a special person. I remind myself often that God must have been in need of a very extraordinary angel when he decided to call you home. I’ll see you again one day.
Until then, I'll try my best to live up to your legacy and hopefully have the same influence on someone that you had on me. You may not be here physically but you’re forever in my heart and forever on my mind.
Until we meet again one sweet day,
Someone who will never stop loving you
