I bet when you first came around, you didn’t mean any harm. Why would you want to come into this world to harm anyone? I’m sure you wanted to do the opposite. You wanted to take away people’s pain. You wanted to help that person who was struggling and make him or her feel okay again. And I’m sure all you wanted was some attention to show people that. All you wanted was to feel loved, wanted, and needed.

Slowly but surely, you realized that once people did get to know you, they did love you. Not just love, either. They needed you. They craved you in their lives. It was like for so long, those people felt lost and hurt, but then you took it all away. All their problems, insecurities, and doubts disappeared when they met you. And if you started to drift away, they would pull you in closer, more frequently. Because once the pain was gone, they never wanted it back. It must be nice to finally get the love and attention you always wanted.

And you must have been proud of that. Proud that the people who gave you a chance, saw how much you could do for them. And they saw that you never judged them. You didn’t judge or exclude anyone. No one’s age, race, religion, or class kept you from being their friend. So I’m sure you’re proud of that too.

Well, I’m not someone who is grateful for you. Actually, I hate you. I hate you with every bone in my body. You may think you solve people’s problems and pain, but you only mask them. You may think you are great because you do not judge; however, I think you’re evil. You trick people into thinking you’re a friend, that you’ll take their pain away just after one conversation. But really, all you cause is more pain. You offer unrealistic solutions and people fall for you. You offer them something they can’t refuse until their want for you, turns into a need, and that need turns into addiction. And it isn’t their fault. You trick them. You manipulate them. They aren’t weak; you are just evil.

So because of that, I will always hate you. I’ll hate you for the things you’ve done to my family, my friends, my coworkers, my classmates, my neighbors, and even strangers. Hate is a strong word but it is the only thing harsh enough that I can think of to explain my feelings toward you. And maybe one day, you’ll realize I am not the only one who feels this way. Maybe one day, you will realize how much pain you don’t take away and how much you actually cause. And you’ll finally go away once and for all. But until then, please know that I don’t want you here — I don’t want you around — and I wish you would just disappear.

Sincerely,

Me