Almost all of us have been here, and if you haven't, I wouldn't count yourself out of it. What seemed to be the most amazing, understanding, fun friendship ended. No, it did not end over night, and no it was not a moment of immense anger. This was a friend breakup that I had seen coming for 6+ months. After 6+ months of being a secondary choice, and playing the role of a character fading into the background, I had to put my foot down and essentially put myself first (something that I don't often do).

Here's the thing, I am not here to drag anyone through the dirt. I am here to thank you. I want to thank you for the 6 years of awesome friendship we had. Thank you for the many laughs, the many nights I spent crying to you, and the many memories I still carry in my heart (and on Snapchat memories). Without you, middle or high school would have not been the same, prom would not have been the same, football, basketball, and softball games would not have been the same. Summers would have been so boring, but we always figured something out, even if that was just riding around blaring music.

It hurt me for a long time to just imagine my life without you as my friend. I miss the person who I could spend hours upon hours with, but people grow and change, and that is nothing against you, but we grew and changed in different directions. I want you to continue being happy doing what you are doing, but it's hard not being there to support you during it. Thank you for supporting me when I needed it, thank you for telling me things were going to be alright, but the thing I am most thankful for is the opportunity you gave me to put myself first.

Putting my happiness and my growth first was something I pushed to the corner, that is until I saw the destructive path our friendship was on. Of course I am sad we lost our friendship, but I have learned so much about myself after losing my bestfriend.

So thank you for everything in the past, and thank you for being part of my future without even being in it.