You awoke me from this slumber
I had allowed myself to remain in for so long

I awoke to your kisses
your comfort
your scent
You know
the one that fills only your nostrils because of it's familiarity
the one that brings back memories
the one that swirls around in every nook and cranny of your body

You awoke me from my slumber
only to make me wish I could go all the way back
To that fateful night when we first met.

You awoke me to find the anger I had put aside
You awoke me to see red and want nothing more than destruction

I awoke to find myself wanting to disappear

I awoke to a boy who will never understand
who will never want to comprehend more than what he's willing to
A boy that captivates me--and for what reason

I awoke to a Micaela I strived to get away from
I awoke to realize you're nothing...

while also being everything.

This awakening is poignant
It makes me question
Roll my eyes
Sleep for days
Disregard my responsibilities
Long for change
Hope for freedom

I awoke to realize I never want to love you again.