Have you ever felt an unexplainable sadness that just seems to consume you? You aren't alone. Here's to you and to push through, no matter how hard it gets.
I know you think there's something wrong with you, that you're "messed up" or that you just don't seem to have the ability to smile, but none of that is true. Nothing is wrong with you. Sometimes, as humans, we experience these things and they don't quite make sense to us or the people around us.
While this random sadness seems to take over your life, you can fight back. Keep living as if the sadness was never there. When you don't feel like getting out of bed, don't feel bad. Don't feel like a burden on society. Sometimes we all just need a break from everything going on in our lives.
You can't seem to wrap your head around the idea that people have been happy since birth or that sometimes people don't ever experience this feeling of being sad unless they have a reason to. It's a concept a lot of people struggle with, myself included. But that doesn't mean that you aren't meant to be happy.
The sadness comes and goes in waves, right? One second you'll be having an amazing time with your friends or family, and the next you'll be wishing you were curled up in bed, blasting sad music and ignoring the world. Don't let it take over. Enjoy those moments as much as you can. We have to push ourselves to live like we're happy all the time.
Don't be discouraged when someone doesn't understand what you're going through. It's not something everyone will be able to understand, but don't be afraid to stand up for yourself if they try to invalidate your feelings.
You feel like nobody wants to listen or help you because they've got their own demons they're dealing with. Don't feel that way. I promise that someone out there is willing to listen, whether it's a friend, a family member, or even a therapist. Someone out there wants to listen. They want to help you get better. As humans, it's programmed into us to help one another in times of need.
I know that sometimes the sadness gets overwhelming. It takes control of your everyday life. It hurts your performance in school, it causes rifts in your social life, it manifests itself and takes over your body and you feel like you can't stop it. Sometimes you cant, but sometimes you have that tiny bit of motivation to get up and face the day. Don't let that go to waste. Speaking from personal experience, whatever you decide to do that day will be infinitely better than just laying in bed.
It's hard trying to pretend everything is okay, just to make sure nobody worries about you. Let them worry. Tell them you're not okay and talk about it. Keeping it all in isn't going to help you get better. It's going to weigh you down more and more until eventually, you break. Breaking is the worst part about this all because once you break the feeling grows bigger and bigger.
You aren't alone in how you feel. None of us are. We just need to realize that and come together to conquer it. I believe in you.