We met on a cheerleading squad in seventh grade. You were new in town and you were nervous for the upcoming school year but I assured you everything will be okay. We didn’t have any classes together but just being your first friend in town, I knew we would still have a friendship no matter how little we talked.
We grew very close once high school started. You spent the first few years in town, but then moved back to your hometown after sophomore year of high school. I knew the separation would be hard because we had so many jokes and it would be hard not seeing your face anymore. I loved seeing your smile through the hallways and the quick hellos, and then all of a sudden it was gone. I felt lost without you for a brief time. Then, everything started to change.
We Facetimed almost every day. We would still share the same laughs and inside jokes. I would tell you about all my crushes and try my best to describe how cute they are and how they make my heart flutter. You would do your weird voices that were normal to me at that point and would bring a smile to my face. I could still tell you everything and it made me content knowing that nothing had truly changed. Not yet, anyway.
The summer before senior year came and as you always do, you came back to town for the summer. We didn’t talk as much at that point, but we were still counting down the days to see each other. A month of summer came and gone like it always does, and then something happened. Unfortunately, I cannot even remember the exact reason as to why we fought, but I know that it was dumb and I truly regret it.
Yet again, I don’t regret getting in the fight we got. Sure, I may have regretted some things I said but I feel that our friendship was bound to not last forever. We slowly grew apart and our opinions were starting to differ. It was bound to happen but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss you.
I miss talking to someone new about my crushes, or movies I like, or just anything and everything. I miss us and the weird voices. I miss counting down the days until I got to see you again. I miss our friendship truly, but I have learned to live without you. I think us ending was for the better. My life has not changed drastically, but it is important to emphasize I do miss you in some ways, but I have survived without talking to you almost every day. So thank you for teaching me how to move on and all the memories I will forever hold. But I can now happily say you were not essential in my life, no matter how much I still want to believe you are.
