Philippians 4:13: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
This verse would often come to mind when you would decide to visit me. It seemed to be one of the only things that could help me to realize that though you are a large part of my past, you no longer get to be a part of my future. There have been too many times where I have had to pick myself up off of the floor due to your inconvenience, and I can no longer allow that to occur.
You see, I have moved on. And thanks to you, I have become an even better person than I was before you decided to make an amateur attempt to control my life. You gave me a choice. I had the option to let you define me or to completely destroy you and all that you hold against me. Obviously, I chose the latter of the two, and it was the best decision I have ever made.
You knocked me down for a very long time. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't seem to pick myself back up. Day after day, I laid in the dark, not allowing any light to shine through whatsoever. And honestly, it took it's toll on me. I became thin, I became angry and I became bitter. I became a reflection that even I didn't recognize when I looked in the mirror. Because of you, my existence was sad. You defeated me, but you did not win.
Eventually, I came to my senses. I realized what was happening and what your true intentions were. I couldn't let you get away with destroying me and everything that I've fought so hard for. It seems that I had forgotten the most important detail of this battle. God was on my side. God never loses, and it was because of you that I was drawn closer to Him.
In a way, it is as if I should be thanking you. Although you showed me weakness, you also showed me true strength. My faith became stronger because of the trials you brought about, and when I realized that, I came out swinging full force. I finally was able to defeat you. Never again will I allow you to make me feel as though I am helpless. You will never bask in the glory of knowing that you have taken all that is good within me. Your goal was to destroy me, and you did just that. But the only parts of me that you managed to obliterate were the ones that I should have done away with long ago.
It's time for you to move on. I have let go of you. I will never look back and wish that you had been successful. Because of you, I am strong. I have found a faith that defies all odds, and that is something you'll never take away from me.
Have a nice life. You're now buried at the bottom of things in which I'll never return to. You'll be much, much happier there.
Good riddance.
