Hey! How are things doing now? I know you might be between mental breakdowns and stressed over whatever your dealing with right now, weather it be that history IA (please actually read your sources) or your IB Chemistry work (actually do your homework) or even that friendship that shall not be named anymore (Its not worth it and she's still mad about it, I think) but I promise you, things do get better. College is so much better than high school in so many ways. You'll join clubs and have fun and make friends. I know its hard and I know you probably hate your family but once your away from them you'll miss them, trust me. Please read this whenever you need it, college is hard and all of your teachers and your counselor and the college and career woman were right, but getting the hell out of town for awhile is the best thing you will do for yourself. Make sure you take care of yourself now, because its a lot harder to find the time in college and you might end up having a breakdown in front of your english professor if you don't (I am still really sorry about that!)

But you are proving all your teachers from high school who did not believe in you wrong, you are kicking ass here and people actually love your writing and the content that you are writing about. You actually passed your exams and are ahead in some classes and you can do this. Please do your homework and don't listen to that voice in your head that tells you that you will be fine when you know you won't be. Send a message to that guy that keeps poking you on Facebook, because it might go well ( and if you don't he still might be poking you to this very day). Don't be scared to actually take mental health days and call your mom to ask to go home early, you actually do need a break to just sleep all day and cry at Netflix, because they work wonders and I don't know where they were at two years ago. All that extracurricular stuff and arts drama thats happening right now will make you glad it happened and guess what? Eventually that person left so you can have hope in what you love again and see new life brought into a program that you thought was going to die. All of that work and note taking will pay off later. So please, sweetheart, treat yourself well and go to bed if its 10 o clock and you are crying at your math or history or just crying at your stress and know tomorrow will be a new day and you can tackle it tomorrow and try again. You made it out of that place and you can make it out, or I would not be here writing this now. You can do all of this and college is so much better than you could imagine. You got this.

Love,

Me, 2016

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